Cause & Effect
G. L. Dartt
The sleek form of the Delta Flyer swept through the star-dusted reaches of the Delta Quadrant, on its way back to its mother ship, USS Voyager. At the helm, Ensign Tom Paris made a minuscule course adjustment and glanced back into the cockpit of the shuttle he had designed to be much larger than the normal class four shuttles they normally took on missions. Ensign Harry Kim was concentrating on the operations station, his dark, handsome face serious as he studied his board.
Tom stifled a grin. There was no question that the other man was a lot more attentive than he would be in an ordinary mission. That was due, no doubt, to the presence of the third party in the small vessel. Captain Kathryn Janeway was not in the habit of leaving her ship on away missions, but the recent negotiations with an alien species had required her to leave the comfortable confines of her bridge, and accompany Tom and Harry to the planet. She left Voyager in the capable hands of her first officer, Commander Chakotay, sending them on ahead to the next system while she dealt with the aliens for the small supply of a heavy metal element, trillinium, that the larger ship needed in maintaining its replicator systems.
Now they were on their way home, and Tom wondered if the captain, studiously concentrating on the board at the tactical station, had developed any particular opinion toward his cherished Delta Flyer. It differed from the rest of the shuttles in not only was it much roomier, he had also added an archaic styling to the vessel, knobs and buttons rather than the customary touch plates of Federation engineering.
"So, Captain," he said casually. "What do you think of the old girl?"
Janeway glanced up at him. A compact woman with auburn hair and level blue-grey eyes, she radiated an authority and presence that intimidated more than a few of her crew. Harry was one of them, and though he tried never to show it, Tom was another. However, it seemed that she tolerated a certain amount of familiarity with him that she did not with most of her crew, possibly because of her previous relationship with Tom's father, Admiral Owen Paris. The admiral had been Janeway's mentor during her time at the Academy, and so she had a proprietary interest in Tom that another captain would not, particularly after Tom had been kicked out of Starfleet for conduct unbecoming an officer.
She favored him with a bit of a smile. "I assume you're referring to the Delta Flyer," she said dryly, and Tom felt his heart hit his shoes. She smiled, taking pity on his stricken expression. "It takes some getting used to," she admitted. "Chakotay mentioned that you had utilized a little of your 'Captain Proton' program for inspiration, and having been forced to participate in that scenario, I can readily see where you were influenced."
"Do you object?" he asked uncertainly.
She shook her head briefly. "As long as it doesn't interfere with efficiency, then I have no problem with your 'dressing' it up a little."
"Thank you, Captain," he replied with honest relief.
There was a minor jolt suddenly, and hastily he turned to his controls.
"Report," Janeway said crisply.
Harry hesitated. "I'm not sure, Captain," he said. "Our sensors aren't picking up anything."
"The same here," Tom said, frowning. "There was no reason for that other than maybe a bit of spatial turbulence." He didn't mention that for a second or two, he had felt disoriented, almost dizzy, but it quickly dissipated and since no one else brought it up, he didn't either. "Should we take a swing back, see if we can find out for sure?"
Janeway paused, considering it. "There's no indication of damage?" she asked.
"No damage," Harry confirmed. "All systems at optimal." He hesitated. "Still, even if it had been turbulence, our sensors should have recorded something," he added fretfully.
"It's a mystery," Tom said in an inviting tone, regarding Janeway hopefully. He enjoyed showing off his vessel to the captain, and anything that would prolong that was something to be taken advantage of.
Janeway grinned at him. "I think it shall have to remain one, I'm afraid," she said. "I do want to rendezvous with Voyager as planned. If there's no damage nor any further indication of turbulence, then this doesn't seem to warrant changing those plans unless we run into it again."
"Aye Captain," Tom said with a certain amount of regret which he carefully kept from coloring his tone.
He turned back to his board and keyed the commands for resuming their course, noting that they hadn't even been thrown off course in the slightest of degrees. He hesitated as he flipped a toggle. Funny, he could have sworn that the small rubber bit at the end had always been red.
Rather than the blue it so clearly was.
Janeway Prime
Janeway had been glad to see the end of this away mission, successful as it had been, and once more be back on her beloved ship. The trillinium would go a long way to help maintain their replicator system and it was with anticipation that she looked forward to the end result of such an arduous day ... a leisurely soak in a hot bubble bath. Preferably accompanied by scented candles and a glass of fine wine. Since she considered herself the one responsible for Voyager's current predicament, for the ship being stranded in the Delta Quadrant going on its fifth year, Janeway did not often think in terms of rewarding herself for a job well done, but in this instance, she thought she could afford this small luxury for herself.
She entered her quarters, unfastening her tunic as she passed through the living area into the bedroom. She shrugged out of the uniform jacket and tossed it on the double bed, reaching down for the hem of her slate blue sweater. It was then she paused, realizing abruptly that something was wrong, and it was subconscious at first, a sense of something being different, of being out of place. She glanced around the room uncertainly, wondering what had triggered such a sensation, then she spotted it, the small holo-image on the night stand.
Bemused, she moved over to it and picked it up. During the first few years of their long journey back to the Federation, she had kept a small picture of herself, her dog, Maggie Malone and her fiancé, Mark Johnson there. She had hung onto the normalcy it had provided, the thought that possibly, everything would be all right if only she could find a way back home. When an encounter with an alien communications array had resulted in Voyager contacting Starfleet to let them know they still existed, the Federation was able to return several personal communiqués for the crew just before the array was destroyed. Janeway had been shaken and profoundly hurt to have gotten a 'Dear John' letter from Mark among them, telling her he had married someone else.
She had gotten rid of the image then, and had not replaced it with anything else. So it was with understandable confusion that she now gazed on an framed image of herself and Seven of Nine, Voyager's astrometrics officer; the same young woman who Janeway had severed from the Borg Collective a year and a half earlier.
Frowning, she examined the recording, wondering not only how it had come to be on her night stand, but where it had been taken in the first place. The background appeared to be that of the ship's mess hall with what seemed to be a party going on behind the figures. Janeway could distinctly see what appeared to be balloons and streamers, colorful and bright. The two women were posed together, the Borg standing behind the captain, her long arms wrapped around Janeway's chest while the captain gazed into the lens with a small but sincere smile on her face. Seven had only the corners of her mouth upturned, but the narrow features of the imposing Borg seemed to emanate an uncharacteristic warmth even as the captain looked a great deal more relaxed than Janeway could remember feeling in years.
She frowned, and carefully put it back down, feeling confused and not a little disturbed. Suddenly, the low hum she had been hearing ever since she had come into the quarters stopped, and with a certain trepidation, she realized it had been originating in the ensuite, from the sonic shower. She turned as she heard someone move about inside, then abruptly, the door swished open and Seven of Nine strode into the bedroom.
Janeway's eyes widened. Not only was the Borg in the captain's quarters uninvited, she was wearing nothing but a slinky, silver robe which clung to her curvaceous figure as close as her customary skintight suits. The tall woman was brushing her long blond hair briskly, a task she abruptly ceased when she saw the captain. Her face, adorned with Borg implants which were constant reminders of her time as a drone, lit up with happiness that literally radiated from the pale eyes, something the captain was not accustomed to seeing at all.
"Kathryn," Seven said with obvious pleasure. "You have completed your mission. I have missed you."
Janeway barely had time to assimilate this astonishing statement when Seven moved closer, put her hand ... the right one, devoid of the Borg mesh that covered the left ... around the captain's neck, and drew the smaller woman to her, kissing her warmly and quite thoroughly.
Janeway froze in combined shock and dismay, unable to speak as the woman finally released her and strode out into the living area, continuing the one-sided conversation as if she was completely unaware of the captain's dumbfounded state.
"I had not anticipated you returning so quickly. May I replicate you some dinner?"
Her lips tingling, unable to formulate any sort of immediate response, Janeway staggered to the end of the bed, leaning over cautiously as she peered out through the door to where Seven was retrieving dishes and utensils from the recycler, setting the dining table with quick competence. The continued silence must have alerted the young woman that something was not right, and she turned, observing the captain with a brief frown, tilting her head slightly.
"Kathryn? Is there something wrong?" she asked in a concerned voice.
Janeway took a deep breath, her mind finally stirring into some sort of activity, shaking off the lingering effects of shock.
"Seven," she said in what she hoped fervently was a calm, rational tone. "What are you doing?"
The Borg raised her eyebrow. "I am preparing our dinner," she said in obvious confusion.
"Why?"
"Because you are hungry?" Seven suggested, plainly making a guess..
Janeway closed her eyes. "No, I mean, why are you making dinner for us?" she tried to clarify. "What are you doing in my quarters?"
Seven blinked. "I live here," she said.
Janeway's head went back as if she had just been struck. The astounded "Since when?" slipped out of her mouth before she could stop it.
Seven frowned. "Since shortly after the incident with Arturis*," she explained. She put the glasses she held in her hands carefully down on the table, and moved closer to Janeway, her face concerned.
"Kathryn, you are frightening me," she said. "Have you struck your head? Are you suffering from some form of amnesia? How could you not remember the last eight months?"
Janeway stared at her. She wondered if this was another of Seven's personalities making an appearance. Recently, a Borg device had caused Seven to suffer from an increasing plunge into her subconscious, where the personalities of all the people she had assimilated while a drone resided. They had taken over the young woman, displaying themselves in a variety of ways, and it had taken all the Doctor's skill as well as a Vulcan mind meld from Tuvok to finally restore the young woman's own personality. Seven had seemed to have made a full recovery, but the captain could think of no other reason that the Borg would suddenly believe they were involved in a personal relationship.
An intimate relationship, Janeway amended, touching her lips as she remembered the kiss. The captain had always been more tolerant of Seven than the rest of her crew and considered herself the young woman's mentor and guide back to humanity, but this kiss had been one of great familiarity, and had more than a little passion flavoring it. Abruptly Janeway dropped her hand and tapped her comm badge.
"Janeway to sickbay," she said.
"Go ahead," came the Doctor's welcome tones over the channel.
"Doctor, I need you in my quarters immediately," Janeway said urgently, watching Seven with a kind of wariness. "I think I have a medical emergency here."
"On my way," the Doctor remarked before signing off.
Janeway was aware of how startled Seven suddenly looked, then a hurt expression ghosted over her face and the captain reached out her hand, purposely gentling her voice.
"Seven, I assure you we'll get to the bottom of this," she told her in her most compassionate tone.
There was a hum as the Doctor abruptly materialized in the living area. He looked expectantly between the pair of women.
"Please state the nature of the medical emergency," he said pleasantly. He glanced at the Borg. "Hello Seven."
"Doctor," Seven responded evenly. She took a breath. "That captain appears to be having difficulty."
Kathryn was startled once more when the Doctor took this at face value, not hesitating at all at the sight of Seven in a robe in the captain's quarters. He whipped out his medical tricorder, aiming it at Janeway as he ran a small probe over the captain.
"Hey," Janeway protested indignantly. "It's Seven who's confused. She thinks we're ... well, that we're involved in a personal relationship."
The Doctor frowned. "You are," he said, staring at her as if he didn't know what she was talking about.
Rocked again, Janeway threw up her hands, walking away from both her crewmembers.
"Just hold on one moment here," she said. Once she had put some distance between herself and the other two, she turned and regarded them, hands on her hips. "Doctor, are you telling me that you believe that Seven and I are involved romantically."
The Doctor rolled his eyes. "Captain please, you really can't think that's still a secret," he said in a condescending manner. "Seriously, the entire ship knew the day after you two became intimate. It's hardly time to be trying to pretend otherwise. Especially eight months after the fact."
Janeway stared at him, a sudden chill shivering through her.
"Doctor," she said sincerely. "I honestly have no idea what you are talking about. Seven and I have a professional relationship, nothing more. I am her captain. She is my crewmember."
If Seven had looked vaguely hurt before, now she looked devastated and Janeway wished that she could take back the blunt words though she really no idea how she could have said what she did any differently.
"Perhaps this is serious," the Doctor allowed finally, glancing at Seven. He looked back at the captain. "What's the last thing you remember, Captain?" he asked anxiously.
"I remember everything," she said peevishly. "I just don't remember any sort of personal relationship with Seven. Or the picture," she added abruptly. She darted back into the bedroom to retrieve the portrait which had started it all, returning to the living area where she held out the framed glass enclosed image. "I have no idea where and when this was taken."
"It was taken two months ago," the Doctor explained slowly, gazing at it. "At the party to celebrate your birthday, Captain. We held it in the mess hall. I do remember taking that picture."
"I don't," Janeway snapped, then let out her breath with exasperation. "I remember that party, though I didn't really want to have it," she added. "And believe me, at no time did Seven ever hug me like that. Not for as long as I've known her."
"Doctor, what is happening?" Seven was very disturbed at this point, looking to the Emergency Medical Hologram for reassurance. "Why does she not remember?"
"I'm not sure," he said, patting the Borg gently on the shoulder. "But I assure you, we will get to the bottom of this." He turned to Janeway. "Captain, I think I should do an in-depth examination."
Janeway resisted. "Are you sure it's not you two that are remembering incorrectly," she said, trying not to sound hopeful.
He nodded at the holo-image she was still clutching. "What is it they say?" he noted.
"A picture is worth a thousand words."
Seven Prime
Her regeneration halted abruptly and Seven of Nine opened her eyes. She was briefly startled to see the captain standing there and she realized that Janeway had ended the cycle before its natural termination.
"Captain?" she said, raising an eyebrow. She wondered if Janeway wished to indulge in a 'philosophical' discussion and while she was not sure why it could not wait until her regeneration was fully complete, she was not adverse to such a thing. After all, it was hardly the first time she and the captain had discussed things at what could be considered inconvenient hours.
"Annika," Janeway said, her voice low. "I've been looking all over for you. Why were you regenerating?"
Seven blinked, not knowing which to address first; the use of her Human designation, something she had thought had been decided would not be used, or the fact that the captain apparently expected her to be elsewhere doing something entirely different than regenerating. She wondered if she had somehow missed information regarding a meeting. She was equally confused when the captain gently took her hand into her own and drew her down from the dais until they were both standing on the deck but when Janeway slipped her arms around her neck and kissed her, Seven was more than confused. She was profoundly shocked.
Though rather pleasantly so, she decided after a few seconds of having the warm lips pressed lovingly against hers.
She knew what kissing was, of course, having an extensive memory of Human reproductive techniques from her time with the Collective but she did not have any practical experience and she was always eager to broaden her horizons. She was intrigued by the emotional sensation that this purely physical action was producing within her, a tingling warmth that suffused her body from head to toe.
"I missed you, darling," Janeway murmured when they had parted, looking up at the Borg with an expression Seven could not remember ever seeing before. It was similar to the one that Janeway had offered during the incident with Arturis while they had been confined to the brig but not quite. This was very gentle, soft, almost vulnerable. Very unlike the captain's normal expression when regarding Seven.
"I have missed you as well," Seven offered, hoping that was the proper response for what the captain had just said.
Apparently it was since Janeway smiled and kissed her again, then rested her forehead against Seven's. "In fact, if you'll come home with me right now, I'll show you exactly how much I've missed you," the captain said in a very odd tone, husky and deep. It made Seven feel very strange, raising the hair on the back of her neck.
Seven considered that for all of a nanosecond. "Very well," she agreed.
Bemused, she followed as Janeway led her out of cargo bay two. She did note that the captain dropped her grip on her hand the instant they entered the corridor but she did not hesitate as Janeway headed for the turbolift. She eyed the captain speculatively from the corner of her eye as the lift ascended.
"Was your mission successful?" she asked, suddenly feeling the need to make conversation. She was not the best when it came to 'small talk' but she had been trying really hard to adapt to Human customs recently and that was part of the Doctor's many lessons.
It did occur to her that the captain was acting in an uncharacteristic manner, but Seven's lack of experience made it difficult for her to be sure, particularly with Janeway. Since the captain had always treated her in a fairly inconsistent manner at the best of times, Seven thought that it was entirely possible that Janeway had merely decided it was time to teach Seven more about humanity. And while it might not be considered proper among certain of the crew for the captain to be providing this type of lesson, it was at Janeway's initiation so Seven was certainly not going to object. Janeway had been her mentor in many things, why not this area as well?
She noted vaguely that before, where she was generally forced into learning such lessons, arguing every step of the way, she decided that this time, she would simply follow the captain's lead. She considered that to be a sign of maturity. She wondered if Janeway would kiss her again and was a trifle surprised at how much she had enjoyed that, and how much she was anticipating a similar incident in the near future.
Janeway flashed her a smile. "They had a more than a sufficient store of trillinium to give us," she said. "We won't have to worry about running out for a good long while."
Seven nodded. "That is fortunate," she said. She eyed her again. "Captain, may I ask you a question?"
Janeway frowned slightly. "Why so formal, darling?" she said. "Even when we're outside our quarters, you can call me 'Kathryn', you know. It's just while we're on duty that you should stick to 'Captain'."
"I ... see," Seven said, with some surprise. She had not realized that. She was aware that Chakotay, on occasion, called the captain by her first name. To be accorded that same privilege seemed significant indeed.
"What was the question?" Janeway asked as the doors opened to deposit them on the deck three.
"I wish to ask about the word you keep using," Seven said as they went into Janeway's quarters. She was aware of Chakotay coming from the other end of the corridor and that he had an odd expression on his face as Janeway and Seven went through the door, but since the captain did not mention it, she supposed she didn't need to either. "'Darling'. What is that?"
Janeway turned as the door closed behind them, a perplexed expression crossing her elegant features. "Don't you like it?" she asked.
"I do not know what it means," Seven said honestly.
Janeway smiled suddenly, shaking her head. "After all this time," she said in a gentle voice. "And you're only asking now?"
Seven did not know what that meant either, but things were confusing enough and she tried to stick with the point.
"Why do you use it when you refer to me?" she asked.
Janeway moved closer and Seven looked down as the captain slid her arms around her once more.
"It's a term of endearment, Annika," Janeway explained with a note of humor in her voice. "It is a word that lovers use when referring to each other. I'm only going to use it with you, believe me."
That, of course, just opened up a whole new area of questions for the Borg but she did not get the chance to voice any of them since Janeway was suddenly kissing her again. And oddly enough, fumbling at the back of the Borg's neck, unfastening the clasp that kept her blue and gray outfit intact. Seven was startled to feel cool air caress her back as the material parted neatly down to the base of her spine and then Janeway was slipping her hands beneath the mesh like material, peeling it off her shoulders and arms.
At this point, Seven realized that she should probably be objecting but the 'why' exactly escaped her for the moment and it was after pursuing that line of thought when she discovered the captain had rather neatly and efficiently finished undressing her. All the Borg was required to contribute was to raise one foot, then the other. Obligingly, Seven did so, curious but not especially alarmed as Janeway relieved the Borg completely of her outfit, tossing it with an adept casualness onto the sofa.
Seven allowed Janeway to lead her into the bedroom where the captain turned down the bedding, revealing crisp blue Starfleet issued linens. She carefully removed her comm badge and collar pips, placing the golden accouterments on the night stand, then turned back to the Borg who was standing there, not entirely sure what she was supposed to do next.
"Are you waiting for something?" Janeway asked in a slightly teasing tone, holding out her arms.
"Cap ... Kathryn?"
"Undress me," Janeway said, tilting her head slightly. She did not look confused exactly. Just vaguely perplexed at Seven's hesitation.
Seven blinked, then hastened to obey. This was turning into quite an interesting foray into human interaction and it appeared that the captain was far from done. It came to her suddenly that the captain wanted to copulate with her. Though how she came to that conclusion, she wasn't entirely sure.
"Are we about to copulate?" she asked carefully as she removed Janeway's tunic and sweater.
Janeway laughed, a short bark of amusement as she pulled away from the restrictive shirt, shaking her hair free. Strands of it stood out from the rest, stiffened by the static and Seven noted idly that they were the exact color of burnished copper.
"You haven't called it that in awhile," Janeway said wryly.
Seven thought about that. It was true that the last time she had actually used the word was the unfortunate incident with Ensign Kim shortly after her arrival on the vessel. She had not thought the captain would be aware of that conversation however and she was impressed with Janeway's omnipotent knowledge of every little thing that went on in her ship.
"What should I call it?" Seven asked curiously.
Janeway took off her own trousers and boots, tossing them onto the lounger across the room. Seven, who had been holding onto the tunic and sweater uncertainly, immediately followed suit.
"I've always preferred the term 'making love'," Janeway said as she crawled into bed. She stretched out on her back and looked up at Seven. "Did you have a better expression?"
Seven shook her head. "That is acceptable terminology," she said.
She regarded Janeway curiously, head tilted as she took in the length of that compact body, the firm little breasts and the swell of stomach, the thin patch of hair at the juncture of the captain's thighs, the muscular if thin arms and legs. She was suddenly very aware of her own appearance, the abdominal implants that bracketed her torso, that were embedded in her right bicep and just beneath her left collar bone, the mesh which tracked part way down her right leg. Compared to Janeway's perfection, she felt awkward, unsure but the captain did not seem to notice.
Janeway held out her hand. "Come here," she said, smiling faintly. "Or do you just want to look?"
Seven looked at her. "No," she said honestly. "I wish to do more than look."
Janeway Prime
"Are you quite sure," Janeway said, staring at the Doctor.
"No," he said a bit peevishly. "But it's the best explanation I can come up with examining you here in your quarters. I might be able to discover more if you would accompany me to sickbay."
"Not now, Doctor," she said firmly. "I have to call a staff meeting."
She glanced over at Seven who was standing a few feet away, an expression of distress on her narrow features. Janeway could not remember ever seeing such a vulnerable display from the young woman before and she felt her heart go out to her. As disturbing the possibility offered by the Doctor was to her, it was absolutely confounding to Seven. The Borg did not seem to know how to react suddenly.
"I think you should probably be in on this," Janeway added gently.
"I understand, Kath--- Captain," Seven said in a low voice.
"I hate to put a damper on things," the Doctor interjected at that moment. "But while I don't need any sleep, I should point out that it is 2300 hours."
Startled, Janeway looked at him, then her shoulders slumped. Was this something that could be immediately rectified or would it take a great deal of resources? She suspected the latter and in that event, she wanted her people to be at their best, well rested and ready to tackle the problem. She didn't think the time was necessarily an issue though location might be.
"You're correct," she told him. She glanced up. "Computer, locate Ensign Kim and Ensign Paris."
"Ensigns Kim and Paris are currently in their quarters," the computer's feminine tones noted calmly.
Asleep, no doubt she decided. Certainly they could wait until morning to hear the news. To discover that somehow, all three of them had been displaced. That this was not their universe at all but one with striking similarities. And certain differences.
Like my entire life, Janeway added to herself sourly. She made a second call to the bridge, ordering that Voyager be brought to a complete stop. The conn officer's voice was vaguely perplexed when he responded but he obediently followed her orders. A third request put a memo in the padds of the entire senior staff, noting that there was to be a meeting at 0700, just after the beginning of the alpha shift.
Those tasks complete, and now feeling totally at loose ends, she glanced at the other two.
"I guess this can wait for morning," she noted. "No point trying to tackle the problem half asleep."
The Doctor nodded. "I suspect that's a good idea," he said. His face softened perceptively. "Try to get some rest, Captain. I suspect this is only a temporary situation."
She nodded as he dematerialized, wanting to believe him. But what if it wasn't temporary? What if they were trapped here, to live out the rest of their natural lives in this universe? Involuntarily, her eyes slid over to where Seven stood, looking extremely uncertain in the soft glow from the windows which revealed stars no longer distorted by the warp field.
Janeway took a breath. "So we ... you and my counterpart ... live together," she ventured.
Seven nodded slowly. She had her arms crossed over her chest, almost as if she were chilled and was hugging herself. Janeway had to resist the urge to go over and comfort her. After all, it wasn't her that the young woman needed, it was that other Janeway, the one she loved and apparently, loved her back.
Feeling extremely fragile, as if the very deck beneath her was threatening to dissolve, Janeway turned to the one thing that had always been her lifeline in times of tribulation. She strode purposely over to the replicator and keyed in a request for coffee which came out steaming hot, a distinct aberration from how the replicator in her own quarters normally operated. She took a sip and was astounded at the deep roast flavor, the subtle hint of chicory and perhaps even a little trace of chocolate. It was undoubtedly the best cup of coffee she had ever experienced on Voyager.
"This is incredible," she noted, lingering over the dark fluid, sniffing delicately to enjoy the rich aroma.
"Kathryn relishes her coffee," Seven said distantly. "I was pleased to be able to refine the parameters of the replicator in order for her to experience a better 'blend'."
Janeway stared at her. "Hmm," she said idly, taking another sip, letting it sit on her tongue so that she could absorb the taste. "I think I'm going to have a chat with my Seven when I get back."
Seven tilted her head. "You do not love her, do you?" she asked pointedly. "My other self."
That laid it out rather flat on the table and Janeway decided that this Seven was as blunt and forthcoming as her counterpart. The captain hesitated, thinking about how to answer that. "I believe that in addition to being her captain, I am her friend," she admitted. "But the kind of feelings that you and my counterpart apparently share, no, we don't have that."
"Why not?" Seven tilted her head slightly.
Janeway took a large gulp of coffee, stalling for time. "I don't know," she admitted finally. "Lack of opportunity possibly or maybe we're just not each other's type. I do know that it is not in my nature to become involved with a crewmember."
Seven smiled faintly. "It was not in Kathryn's nature either," she said. "Until I convinced her otherwise." She paused. "But it did take a great deal of effort on my part."
Janeway looked at her, felt her lips twitch in a wry grin. "I'll bet it did," she said.
She took her cup and went over to the chair, sitting down. Without being asked, Seven took a seat close to her on the couch. The captain affected not to notice when the Borg's robe fell open to reveal the long length of bronzed tinted legs which Seven crossed neatly. It occurred to Janeway that this Seven was a lot more ... 'human' than her counterpart, or at least, a lot more comfortable in how she handled herself, and interacted with others. She also seemed more confident and was even less intimidated by Janeway, something the Borg never really was in the first place. It made the captain realize that the two Sevens were really very different entities just as, she supposed, she and her own counterpart must be.
"How did you two get together?" she asked, before realizing that perhaps that was a little more information than she should perhaps being trying to find out.
Seven raised an eyebrow. "I fell in love with her," she said evenly. "But when I told her that, she responded by saying that she could not love me back. We went through a very difficult time before I realized that did not mean that she did not love me back. Only that she had concerns and misconceptions which I was required to allay before we could set the parameters of a romantic relationship."
Janeway regarded her coffee. "You must have been very persistent," she said softly.
Seven considered that. "I believe," she said slowly, "that Kathryn was ready to be loved. It was only a matter of helping her understand that." She eyed the captain speculatively. "Perhaps my counterpart shall be equally as convincing ... one day."
Janeway did not know what to think about that.
Only that it seemed ... intriguing.
Seven Prime
Seven kissed the captain intently, cradling the smaller woman's shoulders on her forearms as she pressed lightly down on her. She sensed her weight would be too much for Janeway to bear comfortably so she was careful to support most of it on her elbows and knees. The captain had her arms wrapped around the Borg's neck and was kissing her back with soft passion.
"Oh my," Janeway murmured after they had parted. "If I had known you were going to be this enthusiastic, I would have gone away long ago."
Seven did not know if that was a criticism of her technique or not. The voice did not sound judgmental. Indeed, it was low and husky, a throaty trill that seemed to reverberate through her. She decided that she liked Kathryn's voice very much and hoped she would have further opportunity to hear it pitched at just that tone in the future.
"Have I been inadequate?" she queried finally.
Janeway laughed. "Oh no, my love," she said. "Far from it." Her brows drew together as she suddenly frowned faintly. "However, you did seem a bit different tonight. Did you really miss me that much?"
Seven tried to formulate an answer to that question. She decided that she lacked the necessary data to do so.
"Could you be more specific?" she requested.
Janeway eyed her curiously. "I just meant that you seemed a little 'off' tonight," she responded. "Not as, oh I don't know, relaxed as you normally are when we make love. More urgent somehow."
Seven raised an eyebrow. "This is the first time we have 'made love'," she noted with confusion.
Janeway just stared at her. Clearly she was trying to figure out what that meant and Seven suddenly thought that it might be a good idea to withdraw from the captain a little, to put a little distance between them. She rolled off Janeway and sat up, wrapping her arms around her knees as she regarded Janeway uncertainly.
Janeway sat up as well, bringing the lights up with a word. In the sudden illumination, she was wonderfully mussed, incredibly alluring. Seven wondered why the captain couldn't look like that all the time rather than the formal, forbidding expression she usually assumed.
"Annika, what are you talking about?" Janeway asked finally.
Seven considered it. "You implied that we have copulated before," she said. "That is not correct. Tonight was the first time we have ever interacted in this manner."
Janeway held up an elegant, long finger. "Wait," she said, frowning. "Annika, you and I have been lovers for eight months. We have made love many times."
"That is incorrect," Seven insisted.
Janeway's mouth opened, then closed. Clearly, she was at a complete loss for words.
"Tuvok to Captain Janeway."
The call interrupted whatever it was Janeway might have finally come up with and it seemed that she grabbed her comm badge off the night stand with a certain amount of relief.
"Go ahead, Tuvok," she said crisply.
"Captain, I am in sickbay," he responded promptly. "Ensign Kim has been injured by Lt. Torres."
"What?" Janeway blurted.
"Lt. Torres punched Ensign Kim repeatedly about the head and shoulders," Tuvok elaborated. "She claims that he attempted to sexually assault her."
"What?" Janeway yelped again, then seemed to realize that she was repeating herself. She took a breath. "Just hang on, Tuvok. I'll be down in a minute."
She glanced at Seven. "We're going to have to discuss this later," she said as she got out of bed and began pulling on her uniform.
"I shall accompany you," Seven remarked, getting out of bed herself. She went into the living area and retrieved her outfit, putting it on swiftly and replacing her hair into its customary austere bun.
She wondered if what had just happened with Ensign Kim and Lt. Torres had anything to do with how the captain had been acting.
The couple did not speak as they left the quarters and headed for the turbolift. Seven eyed Janeway surreptitiously from the corner of her eye, impressed by how the command mask had fully reapplied itself to the classic features. No one would ever suspect that as recently as twenty minutes earlier the woman had been crying out with total abandon, her head tossed back, her face the very definition of sexual pleasure.
They rushed into sickbay to find the Doctor repairing a bruised and battered Ensign Kim while an infuriated Lt. Torres was being watched closely by a couple of Tuvok's security personnel.
"Report," Janeway snapped.
"That maniac snuck into my quarters and jumped on me while I was sleeping," Torres howled, pointing at Harry. "He tried to—well, you know what he tried to do."
Seven raised an eyebrow. She wanted to ask for specifics, but was unsure that would be particularly wise at this moment.
Janeway looked at Harry. "Mr. Kim?" she asked expectantly.
"Honestly, Captain," he protested. He was completely flustered. "I don't know what got into her. It's hardly the first time I've surprised her that way."
"What?" Torres yelped.
Janeway held up a hand, taking command at the situation. She regarded the chief engineer sternly. "Lt. Torres, I'm not prepared to comment on how you and Mr. Kim conduct your romance, but was it really necessary for you to pummel him like this?"
Seven, the Doctor, Tuvok, his security guards and B'Elanna all gaped at the captain.
"What romance?" B'Elanna sputtered finally.
"B'Elanna, you and I have been together for months," Harry said. He was the only one not looking at the captain. "I mean, if you want to break up, all you have to do is tell me."
B'Elanna shifted her astounded expression to the operations officer. "Starfleet, I think you finally lost it," she said. Then she frowned. "Oh god, this isn't one of Tom's stupid practical jokes, is it?"
"What does Mr. Paris have to do with this?" Janeway aaked, obviously trying to put a little clarity in the situation.
B'Elanna took a deep breath. "This is too weird," she decided finally and shut up, crossing her arms across her chest and sticking out her jaw.
Seven cleared her throat. She had read that such an act would divert attention to the one wishing it and she was gratified to see that it was quite adequate for that purpose.
"There have been other aberrant things occurring this evening," she said. "Earlier, the captain took me to her quarters where we copulated for several hours. Then gave every indication that such action was commonplace when in fact, I know it is not. And I do not believe that Ensign Kim, no matter what the provocation, would approach Lt. Torres unless he believed his 'advances' would have been welcomed. Therefore, I must conclude that this is not Captain Janeway, nor is that Ensign Kim."
Seven saw that she had shocked everyone and was not entirely sure it was because of the fact that these two beings were most likely not who they thought they were, or her revelation about her and the captain copulating.
Only the Vulcan security chief seem to have any sense of poise in the stark silence that followed. "Do you have anything to back up such a statement, Seven?" Tuvok asked calmly.
"Other than what has been happening?" Seven offered. "No. But I do think a medical scan could tell us more."
She noted that Janeway looked absolutely stunned, and indeed she must have been because she did not object when the Doctor nudged her over to the nearest table and began taking readings. It did not take long before the group discovered that the pair's bio-readings were slightly out of synch with this universe. Ensign Paris was hastily awakened and hustled out of his quarters where he had been sleeping peacefully, completely unaware of all the excitement. When a spare moment granted someone the opportunity to tell him that he was supposedly the one involved romantically with Lt. Torres, his astonished laughter could not be considered at all flattering for the Klingon hybrid.
She had to be forcibly restrained from punching him as well.
Janeway Prime
Captain Janeway sat in the chair at the head of the conference table, very aware that it was not truly hers, that in fact, it belonged to another. She had been surprised to see that Seven had acquired a seat directly opposite hers at the other end of the table. It indicated a certain sort of status that none of the other senior staff had, perhaps because of her relationship with the captain? Janeway wasn't sure she wanted to know the politics involved, or how their relationship was viewed by the crew. It would only serve as a distraction from the real problem.
Her revelation had rocked the crew, especially B'Elanna, Tom and Harry. Apparently in this universe, it was Harry Kim with whom the chief engineer was involved. Janeway wasn't sure who was more rattled by that. Tom—or Harry who even now, kept glancing at Torres as if he had never seen her before. Janeway wondered just what might have gone on the night before, then decided that she had enough to concern herself with.
She had remained in the captain's quarters while Seven had graciously spent the rest of the night in cargo bay two, regenerating though apparently, she was only required to spend an hour or so every three days to maintain her Borg implants. The rest of the time, as she informed the captain, she was more than capable of fulfilling her body's need for restoration by sleeping, just as the rest of the crew did.
Janeway wondered if her own Seven had reached that stage and if so, how inconsiderate the captain had been by not transferring the young woman to more comfortable quarters. After all, how could she expect Seven to consider herself 'Human' when she was shoved into a cargo bay like a piece of equipment, her privacy violated at will by whoever needed materials from the cargo that still remained. She felt vaguely ashamed and promised herself that she would rectify that as soon as she returned.
Assuming she returned. Just because they now knew what had happened didn't mean they could come up with a way to reverse it. They weren't even entirely sure why or how the trio had shifted universes in the first place.
"It had to be that bump," Tom was saying. He looked intently at the captain, a stray lock of fair hair falling over his forehead boyishly. "I didn't say anything at the time, but I felt really dizzy and disoriented for a few seconds."
"I did, too," Harry said, looking at his friend.
"Then why didn't you mention it at the time?" Janeway said sternly.
Tom grinned faintly at her. "Why didn't you?" he countered.
She tried to hold her scowl, knew it was hopeless. "I was afraid I had gotten space sick," she admitted finally. "On just a little turbulence. It would have been a humiliating thing to own up to."
"You know, I think it was just us," Harry noted slowly. "The Delta Flyer didn't come with us." He looked hesitantly at the captain. "Though I'm not sure why I say that."
"No, you're right, Harry," Tom said. "The toggles on the navigational array. I could swear they've always been red, but if we were to go down there right now, we'd find that they're blue. The differences are subtle, easy to overlook or dismiss but they are there."
"Some are not so subtle," Janeway said dryly and forced herself not to look at Seven.
"The real question is, how do we proceed now?" Chakotay said. He had been leaning back in his chair, listening to the discussion without comment until now. He regarded Janeway.
"Captain, I'm quite content to accept you as commander of this vessel for the time being and probably even in the future should we be unable to figure out a way to return you. But that's something that needs to be put in the official logs should it come to that. The crew would be uneasy otherwise."
Janeway nodded. She had not even really thought about it but the first officer was completely correct. She was captain, yes, but not of this Voyager. And indeed, her ship was currently without its commander as well. She took a breath, trying not to think about what it would be like not to return, to have to remain here. Unbidden, her eyes went once more to the cool, imposing blond sitting across from her.
Of course, there would be one advantage, she noted, her sense of humor making a rather unexpected appearance. The coffee's a hell of a lot better in this universe. She supposed she would need quite a lot of it in the upcoming days and she did not envy her counterpart who would only be able to fuel herself with what she now considered the tasteless replicated version. Or worse, Neelix's special concoction. She wondered if her counterpart would convince the Seven she knew to work on the replicator parameters. Maybe there was some real incentive in going back after all.
"We have to find the exact point where that 'turbulence' occurred," she said. She glanced at B'Elanna and Tom. "I want you two to go over the navigational records of the Delta Flyer, pinpoint exactly where we were. Seven, I want you and Harry to run scans of that area of space, try to find anything that would account for this transference of personnel from one universe to another. Chakotay, as soon as we discover anything, we'll take Voyager back along that track."
A chorus of 'ayes' and 'understood, captain' came her way and she was gratified to know that her crew seemed just as skilled in this reality as it did in the other. The staff got up at her dismissal and headed for the door, Seven lingering behind.
Janeway raised an eyebrow, waiting for the door to slide shut, leaving them alone before she spoke.
"You have something to add?" she asked in a far gentler voice than she was accustomed to using with Seven. It surprised her at how much her attitude toward the Borg had altered in just the short time she had been in this universe.
Seven hesitated, seemed to search for words. "Do you believe that the captain and the others are all right?" she said. "We are just assuming they 'switched places' with you. There is no way of knowing that for certain."
Janeway realized how much Seven needed assurance and understandably so.
"Yes, I do believe that right now, my counterpart is sitting in my seat even as we speak," she said in her most positive tone. "In fact, there's no doubt in my mind that she's probably doing the exact same thing I am right now."
"Trying to get back to where she belongs."
Seven Prime
Seven of Nine glanced up as the doors to astrometrics slid open. Captain Janeway entered and the Borg raised an eyebrow inquiringly as the compact woman crossed the deck to where she was working at her console.
"I have no results as of yet, Captain," she told her, anticipating her question.
Janeway's lips twitched slightly, not a grin but certainly an indication of being amused. Seven noted that her eyes took on a blue cast in that case. She had discovered that she had been paying closer and closer detail to incidentals about Janeway lately.
The captain rested her hands on the top of the metal work station. "That's not why I'm here," she said softly.
Seven was surprised. "Indeed?" She linked her hands behind her back and gave the captain her full attention, leaving off her work for the moment. "What did you wish to see me about?"
Janeway took a deep breath. "I wanted to apologize, Seven," she said. "If I did anything to make you feel uncomfortable or upset you in any way. It was never my intention to force you into a situation where you were not ready to be."
Seven considered that. "You are referring to our copulating," she said and noted how Janeway winced slightly. "When we made love," she amended in a gentler tone. "Captain, while I was not entirely sure of your intentions, you did not 'seduce' me into anything that was disagreeable to me."
Janeway seemed unable to look the Borg in the eyes. "I'm glad of that," she said. She paused, then raised her eyes, staring directly at Seven, the words bursting out of her suddenly. "Dammit, why didn't you tell me to stop?"
Seven blinked. "I did not want you to stop," she said honestly. "I enjoyed what we were doing."
"You do understand, I thought you were someone else," Janeway said, perhaps a bit more brutally than she otherwise would have said but it seemed to Seven that the captain felt she should be more upset by what had happened.
"I do, now," Seven responded. She hesitated, then allowed herself a faint smile. "I also believed you to be someone else."
Janeway stared at her, then shook her head, a wry grin touching her mouth. "Seven, are you attracted to your captain?"
"In truth," Seven replied. "I had not considered it before."
"And now?" Janeway's eyes were a crystal blue, Seven noted idly, with just a touch of gray.
"And now," Seven echoed. "I am considering it."
A muscle in Janeway's jaw twitched, looking at her from beneath lowered brows. Then she smiled. "Just don't give up if the going gets tough," she said. "Trust me when I say, Captain Janeway doesn't always know what's best for her."
"I am sure you are correct," Seven allowed slowly, after thinking about it.
A chirp from her console alerted her and she turned quickly to her board, accessing it. Janeway looked anxiously over her shoulder as she worked.
"Sensors are detecting a subspace rift, Captain," Seven noted. "It is in the low range spectrum which is possibly why the Delta Flyer's scans did not detect it. Voyager's sensors are calibrated to a much greater range."
Janeway touched her comm badge. "Captain to the bridge," she said. "Full stop. Hold station keeping here. Turn all sensors to the coordinates Seven is now feeding to you."
"Understood," Chakotay responded.
Seven made a few more adjustments. "Captain, sensors are picking up a vessel approaching on the other side of the rift," she said. She glanced forward as the large monitors looming over the Astrometrics lab shifted to show a very familiar vessel. "It is Voyager."
"Can you hail them?" Janeway said, raising an eyebrow curiously.
Seven made the necessary connections. "Voyager to ... Voyager," she said, hesitating only briefly. "Please respond." She blinked as her hail was immediately returned by an eerily familiar voice and image on the screens. She gaped openly at the blond Borg dominating the screen.
"Voyager, this is Voyager," Seven-Alt replied.
"This is ridicules," Janeway-Alt muttered. "Let's keep it to personalities." She accessed the board herself. "Annika, this is Captain Janeway."
"Kath... Captain?" The voice was joyous. Then it faded, became more cool, distant. "Voyager, can you confirm you are the correct vessel?"
Seven-Prime saw that Janeway-Alt was initially confused by the request, then her face suddenly cleared and she smiled briefly. "Annika, the first time it happened, we were in a shuttle on the hangar deck. What was it?"
There was a pause. "That was the first place we ever kissed," the Seven-Alt offered with a faint smile. "Kathryn, are you all right?"
"I'm fine," Janeway-Alt said and Seven-Prime could suddenly see the love radiating from her face, the joy at being reunited with the person she adored.
Seven-Prime felt very odd, as if she were intruding on what should have been a very private moment. Then the viewer shifted to an image of Janeway-Prime and the moment was abruptly over.
"Captain, how do you propose we handle this?" she asked, her face composed.
Glancing back and forth between them, Seven-Prime could readily see the difference. It wasn't so much visual as it was the sense she got from each of them. The alternative captain was much easier in her motion, more relaxed in her manner. Her captain ... her Janeway ... was more on edge, rigid and less open in the set of her shoulders. Could love truly make that much of a difference? Seven-Prime decided that it must.
"I think if we reproduce the conditions which caused the first switch, we might be able to reverse the effects," Janeway-Alt noted professionally.
"My thinking exactly," the other captain said and for a brief moment, the two Janeways shared a thin smile.
Seven-Prime felt a headache coming on.
And in the end, it was just that simple. The trio readied the Delta Flyer and coordinating with the other Delta Flyer, they matched course and speed as they flew into the rift. Seven was on the bridge by this time and she took a breath as she watched the silvery vessel disappear in a flash of light only to suddenly reappear almost immediately.
"Commander," Tuvok noted. "The rift is closing."
Chakotay glanced back at him worriedly. "Let's hope we got the right people this time," he said.
Seven looked at the Delta Flyer approaching the ship and somehow knew they had. She was surprised to feel a very real pang at that. From somewhere deep inside, an emotion stirred and it took her a moment to identify it.
Envy.
She did not show it outwardly, but for just a moment, she bitterly envied her counterpart, envied the other Borg's access to a love that she had only had the briefest taste of. There was no guarantee that she could reproduce such a thing with her own Janeway. Indeed, since their path had altered so significantly from the other universe, it was very possible she could not. And she regretted that profoundly.
She refused to let the tears stinging the back of her eyes reveal themselves.
Good-bye Kathryn, she thought, heart aching. Thank you for loving me, even if it was for only a moment or two.
Then she accessed the tactical station, not experiencing the same sense of anticipation the others on the bridge felt as the Delta Flyer docked and the crew disembarked. She hoped that whatever the future would bring, that somehow this awful feeling of loss would disappear.
Epilogue
Captain Janeway hesitated outside the doors of cargo bay two, then taking a deep breath, she keyed the controls, stepping through the large doors which parted slowly to allow her entrance. She realized that she had not announced herself and remembered that she had promised to find Seven better quarters. Tomorrow, she told herself sternly. She was determined that by the end of the week, Seven would no longer have to live in this cavernous bay. She would have her own quarters one way or another.
To her surprise, Seven was not regenerating as she had anticipated. For a moment, she was disappointed. Though she would never share this with anyone, it had become her habit to study the young woman as she regenerated before she terminated the cycle to speak with her. She refused to acknowledge the feelings that stirred inside her whenever she did. For her, it was a small indulgence she allowed herself in the Delta Quadrant and she regretted that she would not get the opportunity this time.
Seven glanced up from her work console, an eyebrow raising quizzically as she watched the captain approach.
"Captain?" she queried. "It is quite late."
Janeway nodded briefly. "It is," she said. She hesitated, much more aware of Seven as an individual now than she had been before. "I apologize if I'm disturbing you."
Seven regarded her and stopped her work, linking her hands formally behind her back as she granted Janeway her full attention. "You are not disturbing me," she said, and it seemed her voice was much gentler than at any time Janeway had ever heard her.
Suddenly, the captain was quite nervous and she dropped her hands to her sides, hoping they weren't visibly trembling.
"Seven, I just wanted to let you know," she said, controlling the quaver in her voice with an effort. "I'm aware that you and my counterpart had a brief misunderstanding."
Seven blinked, observed her closely. "You are referring to our cop—'making love'," she said.
The words, so blatantly stated, impacted Janeway's midsection like a blow and she had to take a second to regain her composure, not wanting to acknowledge the sudden image that threaded through her mind of her counterpart and Seven locked in a sensual embrace. It all too easily shifted to imagine how it would feel for it to have been her.
"Yes," she said carefully. "I'm worried that you might have negative repercussions from such an experience."
Seven looked perplexed. "Kathryn was, I believe according to all conventional wisdom, quite a remarkable lover," she said reasonably. "And with her knowledge of my counterpart, she was very adept at pleasing me. I experience no negative repercussions, Captain."
Janeway was somewhat at a loss for words. "Oh," she said finally. She managed a weak smile. "I'm glad, Seven," she said sincerely. "I would not want you to be hurt by anything."
Seven stared at her. "Indeed," she said as if surprised. She paused. "Is there anything else, Captain?"
Janeway could not quite figure out how she had lost her grip on this conversation but somehow she had. She shook her head.
"No, Seven," she said. "I was just concerned. I'm very happy to see that concern was misplaced."
Seven nodded briefly, clearly considering the discussion to be terminated. Awkwardly, Janeway gave a brief nod of farewell and turned to go.
"It is curious," Seven said.
Janeway paused, feeling something ... she wasn't sure what ... skitter up her spine.
"What?" she asked, not turning back. She did angle her head to her shoulder though she refused to look at the young woman.
"How our counterparts could create a certain type of relationship whereas we have never considered such interaction," Seven said.
Janeway found it difficult to breathe, as if there was a band across her chest. "Different paths, Seven," she managed. "Every decision, every choice leads to a different path in life."
"Yes," Seven allowed. There was a hesitation. "Perhaps such a path is merely waiting to be explored. Should one attempt to find it."
Janeway swallowed. "The possibility always exists, Seven," she said. She dared to raise her eyes, turning slightly, meeting the pale blue gaze of the Borg. For a brief second, something passed between them, electric, different than anything they had ever shared before.
Janeway felt a smile quirk the corners of her mouth.
"Perhaps we should discuss it at greater length, sometime in the future," she suggested delicately.
Seven considered that. "I would appreciate such an opportunity," she said.
Janeway nodded.
And got out of there before the power of that intent gaze bowled her over entirely. She shook her head as she strode rapidly through the corridor toward the turbo-lift. God only knew what effect that conversation is going to cause, she thought with a hint of worry.
And a whole lot of anticipation.
Epilogue
(Alt Universe)
The captain's quarters were dimly illuminated and through the bedroom door, the soft murmurs and sounds of two lovers reunited wafted into the still air. Janeway and Seven were curled up in the warm cocoon of blankets and linens, wrapped around each other in the center of the bed. The captain nuzzled the smooth soft skin of her partner's throat, kissing along the line of it, feeling the flutter of pulse beneath her lips. She so adored this woman, in either universe.
Which led her to the unavoidable truth that she was going to have to tell her lover exactly what had happened in that other reality though it was a prospect that was far from pleasing. The trouble was, Janeway wasn't quite sure where to start, or how to phrase it in such a way that it wouldn't hurt Annika.
"What is it?" Seven asked softly.
Startled, Janeway drew back to look at her, realizing she must have tensed subconsciously in her efforts to figure out what to say. She took a deep breath and rested her fingertips gently on Seven's alabaster cheek.
"Darling, you know I love you," she said. "More than anything in the universe."
"I do," Seven agreed slowly, frowning a bit.
"That love can sometimes blind me," Janeway struggled on. "To such an extent that I can see only you, even if it isn't."
Seven considered that for a long moment. "Did you have difficulty distinguishing between me and my counterpart?" she asked and for some reason, Janeway thought a touch of coolness had crept into the Borg's precise intonation.
The captain took a deep breath. "Darling, I truly believed she was you," she said, a hint of desperation tinging her voice.
Seven was silent, staring at her. "Did you and she copulate?" she asked flatly.
Janeway looked at that as if an activated photon torpedo had just landed in her lap. They had made a definite distinction between 'copulating' and 'making love'; one was a result of their emotions, the other was merely a physical expenditure. The trouble was, she wasn't sure which one she should go with in this case, which one would be less hurtful to her partner.
She swallowed hard. "We made love," she admitted quietly. "In retrospect, I can see where she was less experienced than you, but at the time ... darling, I had just missed you so much when I was away. I didn't pay as close attention to the subtleties as I should have. I'm so very, very sorry."
Seven drew away, sitting up in the bed, wrapping her arms around her knees and Janeway was struck by the image of another Seven in a similar position, just after the Borg had informed her that they had never made love before that night. She tried to read what was going on in Seven's mind, what thoughts were crossing that suddenly impassive face. Her heart pounded in her chest and she tried very hard to moderate her respiration.
Seven pursed her lips. "She did not object?" she asked.
Janeway shook her head. "No," she replied gently. "I believe ... she was attracted to her captain so when it appeared that Janeway was suddenly returning her interest... " Janeway trailed off, searching for the proper words. "But I take full responsibility, Annika. I was the aggressor. I sought her out and took her back to my quarters."
"You would," Seven said finally and Janeway was heartened to hear a hint of dry humor flavor her tone. "Kathryn, I appreciate that my counterpart would not object to being with you. Certainly, had the Janeway which came here been more ... like you, it may have taken some time before I realized that she was not who I initially thought she was. I also believe that had positions been reversed and I was that Seven, I would be quite appreciative for you 'making love' to me."
Janeway thought she could start breathing again. "Does this mean you forgive me?" she asked.
Seven reached over, stroking her cheek lightly with her fingertips as she looked deep into her eyes. "I love you, Kathryn," she said with great sincerity. "I do not believe you would do anything to deliberately hurt me. Not if you had any awareness of what was going on." She paused. "You are simply not as alert to your surroundings as I am."
A muscle in Janeway's jaw twitched but she let that one go. She figured she was getting off lightly as it was. "Thank you, darling," she said and if her tone was a trifle sardonic, then she hoped Seven wouldn't notice.
Seven regarded her. A shadow seemed to cross her eyes. "Was her technique ... better?" she asked and her voice was hesitant.
Janeway smiled, a combination of humor and great relief. "Oh no, my love," she said. "You're the only one who can make me go to warp with just a touch."
Seven looked insufferably smug. "Ah," she said, as if she had never been concerned. "I was merely curious."
"Right," Janeway responded wryly. "So why don't you?"
Seven stared at her blankly. "Why don't I what?"
Janeway leaned closer. "Why don't you show me your technique again," she said. "Just to be sure."
Seven smiled faintly and reached out for her. "I will comply," she said and proceeded to do so.
With the most intense sincerity.
The End