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Just Between Fortune & Folly 
G. L. Dartt

 
Captain Kathryn Janeway of the Federation starship, Voyager, stood on her bridge and regarded the construct being displayed on the viewscreen with blatant disbelief. Beside her, also standing, the tall, burly form of her first officer, Commander Chakotay, rubbed the tattoo over his left eye with the back of his thumb and tried to come up with something intelligent to say. Obviously, he couldn't.
"You don't expect me to believe that's a space station? Let alone dock my ship to it?"
The rest of the bridge crew was observing the two senior officers with undisguised fascination, even Tuvok who was covering tactical. The dark-skinned Vulcan lifted his eyes at the tone of his captain's voice, waiting to see what form of logic Chakotay would come up with to convince Janeway to comply with his suggestion. At the helm, the sandy-haired Lt. Tom Paris had swung halfway around to look at his senior officers while, to the rear of the bridge, Lt. Harry Kim crossed his arms over his chest and waited, a faint grin on his dark, handsome features.
"Captain," Chakotay began. "You know the damage still remaining on the ship. The repairs we've managed simply aren't enough ... not for the long term. Jarroc assured me that this station is more than equipped to handle a ship the size of Voyager and they'll have all the parts we need in their shipyards."
"Shipyards?" Janeway checked out the debris field that maintained a steady orbit around the main structure. It was a perfect compliment to the station that looked like a child had constructed it from tattered grey blocks and then kicked it apart a few times, leaving the result to orbit an ugly, maroon planet. "You mean salvage yard."
"Well, it's that too," Chakotay offered. "But honestly, Captain ..." He took a breath and finished in a rush. "It's not like we have a lot of options here."
Ah, that was the rub, wasn't it? Janeway thought glumly. Thanks to a recent battle with three mysterious vessels, her precious ship had sustained heavy damage. The crew had done their best, working overtime to repair most of it, but Voyager was still feeling the wounds, far from being her sleek, pristine self, with gaping holes lining her side where the hull had been breached on decks seven and eight. Two days earlier, they had encountered a passing trader who informed them they were 'in luck' because they were in 'spitting distance' of Balleyport Space Station. He swore that no one in the sector had better engineers and the entertainment level had more forms of diversion than anyone could ever hope to encounter.
Considering the way he leered when he said that, Janeway wasn't sure those 'diversions' were anything she wanted to expose her crew to, but the fact remained, they were in desperate need of some dry dock time. And maybe even some leave.
She glanced over at her security chief who quirked an eyebrow. "The sensors detect a wide range of vessels from differing species either docked or in orbit," he offered slowly, "which generally indicates a 'safe port'. It may be worth further investigation, Captain."
She spared him an 'et tu, Tuvok?' glance and reluctantly returned her attention to the viewscreen once more. The structure had not magically turned into a cleaner, more appealing station while she had been looking elsewhere. In fact, it looked even worse the second time around. She made a face and exhaled audibly.
"Send an away team over, Commander," she said in a resigned tone. "Check it out before making the necessary arrangements."
"Uh, Captain?"
"What?" She eyed Chakotay with a frown.
He took a breath. "Jarroc told me that Stationmaster Twimm will deal with the captain of a ship only. He would be offended by any lower ranked officer. Plus, the stationmaster seems to believe that this keeps the exchange of funds above board."
"Wonderful. What kind of funds are we talking about here?"
Chakotay hesitated again.
"Well, there was some mention of wanting to spend 'quality time' with the lovely Captain Janeway whose reputation precedes her...."
She pinned him with a force ten 'you dare?' look and he actually took a step backward, apparently deciding this was not the time to be teasing her. Janeway was aware of astonished amusement lightening the eyes of both Kim and Paris, the latter actually having to turn away to hide his grin, but she did not crack her command mask.  She couldn't believe her first officer had teased her to that extent and decided that she needed to come up with something appropriate to put the good Commander Chakotay back in his place.  Obviously, she had been far too lenient on him lately.
"Easily replicated," Chakotay corrected hastily. "Apparently the coin of exchange here is beryllium."
"Beryllium? The metal, beryllium?"
"Apparently it's very scarce in this sector."
"Interesting," she said, frowning as she considered the scientific possibilities of that particular lack. Then she shook her head, bringing herself back to the situation at hand, taking another glance at the viewscreen. "Are you sure about this?"
"Don't let appearances deceive you. Sometimes, you can receive remarkably skilled repairs in places like these. We relied on them in the Maquis. They don't look like much from the outside but the engineers in those places kept us flying against the Cardassian fleet."
"There is also the possibility that they'll steal us blind, and not do the repairs at all."
He regarded her evenly. "So we just prepare for that eventuality and make sure they can do whatever they claim."
She stifled her sigh. "Prepare a shuttle and arrange a meeting with this Twimm immediately. Set up a shore leave rotation but don't initiate it until we have a better idea what the situation is. In the meantime, I'll be in my quarters. I need to change before I go over there."
"Who do you want to accompany you?"
"Tuvok," she said, knowing that the security chief would not let her off the ship without his being able to act as her personal protector anyway. "B'Elanna. She'll be able to get a look at their facilities, check out if they can do what they say or not. I think that will be all we need, Commander, aside from whomever you wish to pilot the shuttle. I'll leave it to your discretion."
She favored him with a final, 'I hope we don't regret this' expression while he countered with his best 'trust me' look which did not mollify her at all. She mounted the short flight of stars leading to the upper level of the bridge and entered the turbolift, which opened obediently at her approach.
"Deck three."
She crossed her arms over her chest, lost in thought as the lift descended, and stepped off automatically when it stopped. She strode briskly down the corridor leading to the captain's quarters and entered, greeted immediately by her pet Irish Setter who bounded over, a squeaky toy in his jaws. She obligingly made a grab for it as he dodged her, then again, wiggling with delight that his mistress was taking a few minutes to pay attention to him.
Shame filled her as she realized she had been neglecting him dreadfully the past few weeks. Of course, with the state of the ship and all the changes it was going through, she had been beyond busy, but the dog had no way of knowing that. Even with his fair share of playmates in the crew who were more than glad to take him for runs in the new 'park' in cargo bay two, it wasn't the same as attention from his mistress and Janeway knew it. She made a promise to herself to rectify the situation when things calmed down a bit. Not that there was a chance of that happening in the near future, she thought unhappily.
She patted him a final time and headed into the bedroom. Everything in these quarters was immaculate, almost unnaturally so, considering there was a long-haired dog in residence. That was primarily the doing of her spouse of several months, Seven of Nine, late of the Borg Collective. Though Janeway was fairly neat, she had enjoyed a certain amount of clutter prior to her joining with the Borg. Seven, however, refused to live in such inefficiency and Janeway wondered idly how the fastidious blonde would deal with this space station.
The captain went into the ensuite and accessed the closet, her level blue-grey eyes running over the clothes hanging there. Most were hers, a couple of spare uniforms in the event the replicator went down, two types of dress uniforms, and several civilian outfits that she wore while off duty. Seven's part of the closet, in contrast, was much smaller but seemed to be growing exponentially. In addition to the biometric suits the Borg wore in lieu of a Starfleet uniform, and a specifically designed away mission outfit, there was a sky blue dress, still unworn, hanging next to a white wedding dress that never failed to bring a smile to Janeway's face whenever she saw it. The compartments along that side of the closet contained neatly folded T-shirts, shorts, a few pairs of workout pants and seven pairs of silk pyjamas.
It occurred to Janeway that her partner was growing in more ways than one and she wondered how she could go about acquiring more closet space for the couple. Speculating about what exactly in the VIP quarters was on the other side of the bulkhead that made up the back of the closet, Janeway tapped on it gently, trying to decide what it would take to expand a little in that direction ... perhaps even create a walk-in closet? After all, a great many quarters on the ship were being renovated to become family suites due to the recent rash of unexpected pregnancies. Would it be so bad if Janeway and Seven spread out a bit as well? Voyager was becoming a generational vessel now and to maintain what was basically supposed to be the private living space for the captain, versus a home for two people and a pet, seemed somewhat illogical. 
Janeway made a mental note to talk to maintenance about it ... once things settled down a bit, of course, and contemplated her outfits again. She hoped she would never have an occasion to wear the dress whites, since that was the uniform she been married in. She wanted to leave the snowy outfit as a symbol of that day for as long as possible. Then, in the corner, covered with a bit of dust, her eyes lit on a duty uniform that was supposed to be used for away mission work details. It was something in which a captain was rarely in the habit of participating, but the garment was standard issue for every Starfleet officer. She drew out the blue coveralls, hoping they still fit after all this time.
She stripped off her clothes and took a quick shower before pulling on the heavier outfit. She shifted her shoulders uncomfortable under the padded band, affixing her pips to the raised collar as she strolled out into the bedroom.
"Kathryn?"
Janeway was startled by the sudden appearance of her spouse and she dropped the remaining pips in her hand, the two circles of metal bouncing as they hit the floor.
"Damn," she said, and knelt down, picking up the one at her feet.
"I will retrieve the one beneath the bed," Seven remarked, lowered her lanky, six-foot frame to the deck as she groped under the large queen-sized bed.
Janeway admired the view as she absently attached the third pip to her collar, sticking herself inadvertently in the thumb as she did so. Seven was a formidable beauty with blonde hair and ice blue eyes, usually garbed in biometric mesh outfits that left little of her curvaceous body to the imagination. Janeway sucked lightly on her injured digit as Seven finally uncoiled from the floor, reaching over herself to pin the last pip onto the captain's neck.
"You are meeting this stationmaster?" Seven asked, her fingers warm through the tunic as she made the final adjustments.
"My, news certainly travels fast on this ship," Janeway said dryly. "If warp power was this efficient, we would have been back on Earth by now."
Seven's eyebrow quirked slightly. "I will accompany you."
Surprised, Janeway stared at her. "Did Chakotay assign you to the team?"
"The Commander has not contacted me so I must assume that he did not," Seven replied honestly. "However, I still wish to go."
"Why?"
Seven took a breath. "I know that Tuvok can protect you, but I would feel more comfortable if I were with you. This station reminds me greatly of the asteroid where we were held as prisoners. I do not know why I feel this way, but I do and it disturbs me. I do not ask this of you often, Kathryn."
"No, you don't," Janeway granted. She studied her partner's face closely as she considered it for a moment, then nodded. "There's no real reason for me to agree to this request, but on the other hand, there is no compelling reason for me to refuse it either."
"Thank you, Kathryn," Seven responded. "I want ... I need to be at your side now."
"Women's intuition?" Janeway queried impishly, smiling at the expression of outrage on her partner's face at such an assessment. "I do think you're being a bit oversensitive to the station's appearance, love. Heaven knows, I don't like the looks of it myself, but if it would honestly make you feel better to accompany the away team, then I welcome your presence. Just remember who's in command out there."
Seven smiled faintly.
"How could I ever forget such a thing?"
 
The Borg gingerly skirted a dark, oily puddle of some unknown origin as she stepped off the ramp descending from the Type-9 shuttle, glancing around with great distaste. The primary docking ring of the Balleyport Station did not boast the shiny, pristine standards of Starfleet. For that matter, it was not even as tidy as the station where she and her spouse had pretended to be pirates. At the time, she had considered that station as rather cluttered and unmanageable, but the docking bay of this made that one look like the sterile confines of a medical center. There was a sort of haze in the atmosphere that the recycling units apparently could not clear, a greenish tint to the air similar to a Borg cube, but not nearly so humid. Indeed, it smelled of spilled conduit coolant, an acidic odor that dried the nasal passages, forcing the young woman to swallow quite often. 
The Borg was glad that, instead of her normal biometric outfit, she had chosen to wear her away mission outfit; black trousers tucked into calf-high combat boots, with a padded vest over a black sweater. It made her feel less vulnerable among the sharp-edged containers cluttering the hangar than her other outfit would have, as well as making her more prepared for whatever might occur. Her hair was pulled back severely and with the slight swagger she adopted whenever she wore this outfit ... though she wasn't exactly sure why she walked that way ... she was aware she made quite a formidable looking individual. Appearance, of course, should be irrelevant, but she had been severed from the Collective long enough to know it was not, particularly when she was escorting her spouse. She felt that the denizens of this station would benefit from a show of intimidation.
"Hey, your momma dress you in those pyjamas before you left your ship?" a wag noted as they crossed the expansive deck. "Are you some kind of strippers?  Hey, whatcha got under those pretty clothes?"
The captain walked at the front of the group, seemingly oblivious to the condition of the station, of the debris they had to skirt, of the aliens lounging about the docking area who made varied comments about the passing Federation members. With her auburn hair done up in a tight bun, her classic features rigid in a command mask, Voyager's captain made a pretty formidable figure herself, carrying herself with consummate dignity, even in the work detail uniform. But Seven knew Janeway was both aware of the dirt and of the conduct of the lurkers, the back of the captain's neck flushing a dull red and her jaw moving slightly back and forth as if she were grinding her teeth.
Seven noted that all of the hecklers studiously avoided mention of the tall blonde with the silver-grey implants adorning the left eye and right cheek, the mesh covering the left hand. Indeed, when Seven turned her level gaze on the lounging dock workers, they immediately fell silent and found something to do. The looks they cast her way were dark and did not bode well for any future alliances she might have wanted to pursue.
"I can't believe I let myself get talked into this," Janeway muttered as they entered a smaller, danker, access corridor that, according to the faded site map on the wall, led directly to the central merchant section. "What are we doing here?"
<>Tuvok, striding at her side, merely quirked an eyebrow. "It does seem that we are a source of entertainment for the station's inhabitants." 
"I don't mean that," the captain returned. "I mean, wanting to dock my ship here to begin with." 
"We require repairs, Captain. What was it the crew named the last planet?  Any port in a storm?  I believe it applies in this case as well."
"I know, but, surely we're not going to be able to fix Voyager properly here."
The Vulcan remained sanguine about the surroundings. "Appearance is not always indicative of capability."
"No, but it's been my experience that those who take no pride in appearance, take no pride in their work."
"Or, they merely wish to remain anonymous," B'Elanna Torres noted idly, obviously eavesdropping. The Klingon engineer seemed remarkably relaxed and Seven wondered if she somehow enjoyed this atmosphere.
"Meaning?" Janeway shot back quickly, interest glinting in her eyes.
B'Elanna tilted her head. "Captain, if you came across a place like this in the Alpha Quadrant, what would you do?"
"Leave," Janeway said grimly. "It's obviously on its last legs, ready to be abandoned by even the disreputable inhabitants. Thank god, we left Lt. Ayala with the shuttle.  Hopefully, no one will try to steal it in the evacuation."
B'Elanna smiled. "Captain, avoiding the attention of people like you ... authorities, I mean ... may be just what they have in mind. Sometimes being ignored by the authorities is better than not yet being discovered by them."
"Intriguing," Tuvok noted approvingly. "Authorities will not always keep a known entity under surveillance, particularly one which is perceived as 'harmless'."
"Because there's really nothing to find," Janeway noted, regarding her hand distastefully. She had brushed it accidentally against the wall and now it was black with some greasy substance. She looked around with a certain dismay and silently, Seven handed her a clean cloth that the Borg had retrieved from her vest pocket.
The captain shot her partner a grateful look and wiped her hands, handing the cloth back as they entered what had to be the main promenade of the station, lined with assorted shops and bars, all of which looked quite dingy and unappealing. Seven noticed an item in a grimy display window and it took her a moment to realize it was a Borg manipulating unit, obviously severed from a drone who no longer required it. Swallowing hard, Seven quickened her stride, catching up with the rest of the team, resisting the shiver sneaking down her back.
The team knew vaguely where they were going, having received lackadaisical directions from the station's control center on how to reach the stationmaster's office, but the layout of the merchant level confused them. They went down several deadend alleys before they finally cleared the maze of corridors and stairs leading to the uppermost, central administration area of the space station. They found themselves in a lobby where a bored receptionist regarded them unenthusiastically. Stocky, with bone ridges bisecting her face, large lavender eyes and greenish tufts of hair, she was garbed in a tight, one piece outfit that left little to the imagination ... provided one's imagination included two sets of mammary glands and a totally unidentifiable bulge on either hip. 
"Yeah?" she asked, chewing on some unidentifiable substance which she smacked loudly. She had a voice reminiscent of a Human with reverberating nasal passages and Seven wondered if that was indicative of her species since they did not seem to have any nasal cavities at all. She did, however, have two tentacles dangling off the tip of the bone ridge in the general vicinity of the center of her face.
"I am Captain Kathryn Janeway of the Federation starship, Voyager," Janeway said without any inflection in her tone whatsoever ... never a good sign with her, Seven noted. "We're here to see Stationmaster Twimm."
The female seemed vastly unimpressed with this pronouncement, regarding the Federation captain blankly.
"I'll see if he's in."
Since the away team could easily look through the transparent force shield of the office and see what had to be the stationmaster, lounging behind a huge grey desk, Seven did not understand this at all. However, the captain merely nodded and waited patiently as the female touched a button.
"Twimmie, there are some people here to see you," she cooed.
"Send them in," came the response. "And don't call me Twimmie!"
The receptionist pouted ... if that was what that expression could be called, considering her lack of lips ... and pressed a button, deactivating the force shield.
"Go on in," she instructed with little grace.
"Captain Janeway," the individual behind the desk greeted with great enthusiasm. He did not rise to his feet, merely looking over the compact form of the Federation commander in a way that Seven did not like at all. "Please have a seat."
He was a stout individual, broad across the shoulders and belly but not soft. Somehow, the Borg understood that the rolls beneath the somewhat grimy coveralls, beige at one time, were indicative of muscle and not fat. A different species than the receptionist, he had solid dark eyes and a bright reddish mane that framed his wide face. Otherwise, he looked fairly Human, though Seven did wonder to herself when she had made that the standard for judging alien features.
"Stationmaster Twimm," Janeway returned his greeting, offering only the slightest hint of her considerable charm to her tone. Seven realized the captain was put off by his attitude as well. Janeway sat down gingerly in the chair provided while B'Elanna took the other. Seven and Tuvok remained standing, looking alert. "I'm here to arrange docking and repair schedules for my ship."
"And payment," he added jovially.
"And payment," the captain agreed evenly.
He reached out and flipped open a box, drawing out two thinly rolled, brown cylinders. He stuck one in his mouth, sucking on it which immediately made the tip glow red, and offered the other to Janeway who accepted it warily. She mimicked his motion, coughing a little, but managing to keep a thin, grey line of smoke trailing from her mouth just as it did his.
Seven was impressed yet again by her partner's great adaptability and noted that even Twimm seemed to regard the Starfleet captain with a little less casualness.
"So, you understand our form of exchange?" He opened another drawer and tossed a greyish rectangle at Janeway who caught it and without examining it, handed it calmly to B'Elanna who drew out a tricorder and scanned it.
"85% beryllium alloy," B'Elanna said. "15% nickel."
Janeway reached up a hand and in one smooth motion, Tuvok placed an oddly shaped cloth bag in it. Seven got the impression that the captain, the chief engineer and the chief of security had gone through this performance many times before and she felt suddenly self-conscious, wondering what her role was supposed to be. Perhaps she had not needed to come along after all.
Janeway drew out a few greyish triangles and handed them back to the stationmaster who examined them closely, bit into each one, and finally nodded with satisfaction. Seven wondered if the being had some form of saliva that enabled him to identify the elemental makeup of the coins and if so, did that make his species a sort of 'humanoid scanner' as Arturis's people were 'humanoid translators'?
"Your money's good," he said, grinning slightly. "Really good, as a matter of fact. It's pure with no added alloys. The question is, do you have enough of it?"
"The question is, can you provide what we're willing to pay for?" Janeway returned, puffing away easily now on the thin cigarillo, almost as if she was enjoying it.
"Fair enough," he said, obviously growing more jovial every second. "Tell me what you need."
That was B'Elanna's cue and she slid over a padd with a list. He glanced at it, then at her, then back at the padd, picking it up gingerly.
"Nice," he complimented. "Don't suppose you have a few spare ones? Might sweeten the deal, allow me to cut the overhead a bit."
"I think not," Janeway said in the sort of tone that indicated this was not at all negotiable.
Twimm seemed to recognize the inflection as well and shifted his eyes to her, gauging her sincerity, before shrugging.
"Fine," he said, his eyes skimming the list. Then he slid it back. "We can handle that."
B'Elanna eyed him skeptically. "The antimatter converter? The EPS manifold?"
"Not a problem," he said with careless confidence.
B'Elanna stared at him, then glanced at the captain. "We'll know if he's lying soon enough," she said shortly, not convinced, but willing to give the benefit of the doubt. "Those are the priority repairs, Captain. If they can manage those, they can certainly handle the rest."
Janeway inclined her head briefly in acknowledgment and regarded the stationmaster, gesturing with the cigarillo for emphasis as she opened the negotiations. "Your price?"
Seven didn't really understand why the captain then proceeded to spend the next hour or so verbally wrangling with the stationmaster, attempting to make him accept less beryllium than what he initially stated. Indeed, the element was easily replicated on Voyager and they could have paid twice what he was asking to begin with. But the captain seemed determined not to pay that opening amount and at the end of it, after both Janeway and the stationmaster had gone through several more of the smokesticks, exchanged varied compliments, insults and not very amusing jokes, they finally settled on a price, exchanging a handshake to seal the deal.
Seven was relieved to leave the tiny room which, by this time, was blue with the smoky haze, finding it somewhat difficult to breathe. The captain, conversely, continued to puff on the cigarillo happily as she and her team strode through the corridor.
"That wasn't as bad as I thought it would be."
B'Elanna also looked guardedly optimistic. "If they can do what they say they can, then, we may have lucked out."
"Hope is eternal," the captain replied.
"What are you smoking?" the engineer said, glancing sideways at the other woman.
Janeway blinked. "I'm not sure," she said, taking a second to examine the thin, brown tube. "But they're not bad."
"They are vile," Seven remarked, alarmed that the captain actually was enjoying the smokesticks. It was a habit she definitely did not want her partner to acquire. "And no doubt hazardous to your health."
Janeway shot her a look and with a half-grin, stuck the cigarillo back between her teeth jauntily. Seven resisted the urge to roll her eyes, consoling herself with the fact that such a thing would be frowned upon in the delicately balanced atmosphere of Voyager. Should Janeway attempt to light up there, automated fire suppression units would no doubt activate, dousing the burning weed ... and the captain. There was a tiny part of the Borg that would actually find such an incident somewhat amusing.
Moving quickly through the corridors, they headed back to Voyager to receive the repairs that their ship so desperately needed.
 
Lt. Ro Laren entered Voyager's main engineering level, taking note of the various personnel scurrying about as the ship was brought into the station's repair facilities. She nimbly avoided Lt. Vorik as he moved purposely toward the EPS conduit and made her way to the area where the chief engineer's office was located. It was like the eye of a storm, the activity swirling around it as B'Elanna kept issuing orders in a clear, penetrating voice. In that moment of seeing the Klingon in action, Ro was reminded of the other engineers she had known, not the least of which was Geordi LaForge of the Enterprise. She would place B'Elanna at a level that matched, if not surpassed the man in charge of keeping the flagship flying. After all, Geordi had access to Starfleet and all the Federation technology. B'Elanna frequently had to make do with much less as she went along. 
The engineer's dark eyes lit up as she saw the Bajoran, though a regretful expression crossed her face.
"Dinner." Not a question, but a statement or more to the point, a rueful acknowledgment of what she was going to have to miss.
"I figured," Ro said, feeling a pang of disappointment echo through her. "But I thought I'd take a chance."
B'Elanna shook her head with honest remorse. "I've got too much going on. I have to oversee station-side, at least for the first repairs until I know if the guys are any good or not."
"I understand," Ro said. "I really just stopped by to make sure and to let you know..." She trailed off, hesitating, then added in a softer voice. "That I was thinking about you, I guess."
B'Elanna smiled, obviously pleased by that. "I'm thinking of you, too." Just then, Neelix rushed up with a armload of padds and the Klingon only had time to shoot the security officer an apologetic look before having to turn to the next set of problems.
Ro raised her hand in understanding, smiled briefly, then got out of the way of the people who were hard at work. She felt somewhat at loose ends at the moment. Tuvok had indicated quite clearly to his security staff that he did not like the looks of this station though his reasons for it were quite logical, and once crewmembers started the rumored shore leave, he wanted his staff on full alert. Ro herself, had been assigned the unenviable task of shepherding the captain during this rotation. Ro was surprised that Tuvok would grant anyone else that task, but the security chief also needed to be on the ship to monitor his entire force. By ceding this very responsible position to Ro, it was a sign of how much he trusted her abilities ... how much he trusted in her. But it was not an assignment that any security officer in their right mind particularly wanted, especially with this captain. Janeway had a history of getting herself into more trouble in a shorter amount of time than any other captain Ro had ever heard of and if it happened again on Ro's watch, she wasn't sure it would be worth coming back to the ship to face Tuvok with her failure. 
Trying not to worry, Ro stopped by her quarters and did her best to prepare herself. Though the captain had yet to make an indication she intended to go station-side, chances were that she would sooner or later and with little warning. Ro needed to be ready to go in an instant so she tucked several non-issue items into various concealed pockets of her uniform ... a trick learned from Lt. Worf on the Enterprise ... and slipped a stiletto neatly into her boot.
She glanced up as her roommate, Ensign Dorado from geometrics, entered the cabin. Technically, once Ro had received her promotion, she should have been assigned private quarters, but with the various expansion of families and the generally crowded conditions on the vessel at the best of times, it had not even been mentioned. Ro didn't mind. Certainly she had experienced far worse living conditions in her past and Dorado was a fairly easy person to get along with. The mousy brunette hadn't even flickered when it was revealed that the Ara Lerona she had been living with the previous six years was now supposed to be referred to by a different name. She merely shrugged and started calling Ara, Ro. She never asked for details and in fact, never asked Ro about anything, ignoring her existence most of the time.
Ro sometimes wondered if there was more going on there than met the eye, some form of prejudice against Bajorans or Maquis or something. But after a great deal of surreptitious observation, the Bajoran finally came to the conclusion that the Starfleet officer simply did not care about anything outside of geology and rock formations. Sometimes Ro thought it was the other woman's way of dealing with being lost in the Delta Quadrant ... to simply not think about it at all unless she absolutely had to. Ro knew that Dorado had been one of the recipients of a letter during Voyager's encounter with the Hirogen communications array and in it, the ensign was informed of her aging mother's death. Since then, she had become even more engrossed in her work. It didn't make her the liveliest person to live with but it did allow for a certain peacefulness for Ro.
"You on leave?" Dorado asked.
Ro shook her head. "Not security. We're on full active status for as long as we're docked at the station."
"Too bad. I'm on second leave in a couple of days. I hope to hell no one screws up on first leave to prevent the rest of us from going." But it was said without enthusiasm, as if not really caring one way or another. She began to undress, obviously forgetting about the Bajoran as she readied for bed.
The ensign generally worked the gamma shift and she liked to sleep during the latter half of the alpha shift and first part of the beta. Ro tended to make herself scarce then, even when she wasn't on duty, finding other places on the ship to be. Lately, that had been the chief engineer's quarters, though Ro still wasn't entirely sure how she felt about that development.
The security officer left the cabin without saying good-bye, knowing it wasn't necessary or for that matter, appreciated. As she strolled through the corridors, she discovered that she was actually feeling relatively ... benign. For the woman who had spent most of her life and career with a decided chip on her shoulder after having been raised in the Cardassian interment camps ... after having seen her people brutalized and her parents killed right before her eyes ... it was a distinct change. Ro Laren decided that she felt comfortable on Voyager in a way that she had not on the Enterprise or the Wellington before that. She wondered if that was because the Intrepid class vessel was a much smaller ship than those other two, or if the situation they all found themselves in somehow lent itself to making her feel part of a larger whole. Starfleet or Maquis, Alpha or Delta quadrant native, no one on this ship existed without having lost something precious in their lives.
Then, there was the captain. Ro had certainly been greatly influenced by Jean Luc Picard during her time on the Enterprise, but in Janeway, she had seen something different, something more appealing to her, personally. Perhaps it was because Voyager's captain allowed herself to be closer to her crew, interacted with them in a way that other captains could or would not in the Alpha Quadrant. Even Ro had experienced a certain familiarity with Janeway lately, thanks primarily to the Bajoran's new relationship with B'Elanna Torres. Twice, the Klingon had dragged Ro to lunch with the captain and Seven and both times, Ro had been impressed by the woman's great charm and personality as well as her obvious love for her Borg spouse.
Perhaps one day, Ro might even be able to talk to Janeway about what had been bothering her ever since she had revealed her true identity ... the nagging, disturbing guilt she still experienced at having betrayed Captain Picard. And the fear that she might do it again with Janeway.
She entered the turbolift and glanced briefly upward, unconscious that she was doing so.
"Bridge."
She tried to put her musing aside as the lift traveled smoothly upward. It stopped and she glanced at the indicator, the small control panel reading off 'deck four'. Someone else required the turbolift and she felt her face tighten as Tom Paris stepped into the car.
"Bridge," he said, glancing at her briefly. "Lt. Ro."
"Mr. Paris."
Lately, she had been sensing a certain amount of animosity towards her from the helmsman and she wasn't sure where it was coming from, whether it was a result of her becoming closer to the chief engineer with whom Paris had previously shared a tempestuous romance, or that fact that she had been assigned helm duty as his primary backup. Or perhaps it was a combination of both. All she really knew was that his face took on a type of dislike whenever he saw her though she doubted he knew that's what he was displaying. The fair-haired young man was not very good at hiding his feelings at the best of times and for a security officer trained in attention to details, he was an open book.
She hadn't decided what she intended to do about it or if in fact, she was going to do anything at all. It was possible that if she let it be, he would get over it of his own accord and they could move on from there.
"Do you have bridge duty?" he asked, attempting some small talk. He seemed very uneasy and this was clearly his way of dealing with it.
"No. I've been assigned to the captain during station-side operations and I'm required to check in with her."
He didn't look particularly happy to hear that either but since there was little Ro could do about that, she ignored it. The doors slid open and Ro stepped out onto the bridge, nodding briefly at Tuvok on her right as she passed his tactical console to step down the short flight of stairs leading to the ready room. She touched the chime on the door, trying not to feel self-conscious as she stood there, waiting for a response from within. There was an unusually long pause, and Ro wondered if the captain was even in there, before Janeway's voice finally came over the speaker.
"Enter."
Ro stepped forward, the door obediently opening before her. She was somewhat surprised to see Seven of Nine already in the ready room, sitting calmly in a chair. The captain was behind the desk, an eyebrow raised inquiringly as she regarded Ro. The security officer could see absolutely nothing out of the ordinary, yet she had the distinct impression that she was interrupting something. Was the captain's hair a little mussed? Did Seven seem somewhat different from her normal cool demeanor? Had they been fighting or something?
Ro decided it was just her imagination working overtime.
"Captain, I wanted to inform you that Lt. Commander Tuvok has assigned me to you while docked to Balleyport Station. I would request that if you feel the need to leave the ship, that I am informed of it as well? I will need to accompany you."
Janeway's eyes narrowed slightly. "I'm not in the habit of reporting my travel plans to a crewmember, Lt. Ro, being a little old to require a baby-sitter."
Ro blinked. Was that what she said? She thought she had been just reporting in to the captain as any security officer would. Frantically, she tried to remember what words she had used in what order that would have caused such offense in the captain.
"Kathryn," Seven murmured in a low voice. "Do not tease Lt. Ro."
Surprised, Ro glanced at the Borg, then at the captain who was grinning faintly at her spouse. The Bajoran flushed. She was not used to being needled by a commanding officer, not in this fashion, and it made her extremely uncomfortable. Janeway seemed to sense that and she offered a placating wave of her hand.
"I'm sorry. I know it's not an easy job riding herd on me, I shouldn't make it more difficult." She smiled winningly at Ro. "I'm pleased that Tuvok assigned you, Laren. For one thing, I'm certain that means that Seven won't be as apt to worry about my going off without her if you're accompanying me."
Seven raised an eyebrow, glanced at Ro, then looked a bit uncomfortable herself.
"I am sure you shall perform adequately in your task," the Borg said reluctantly.
Obviously, Seven didn't trust that anyone but she would be able to protect her spouse, but because of Ro's friendship with B'Elanna, the Borg was actually having difficulty finding a way to say that. Ro found that somewhat charming and was also aware that the captain had deliberately put her spouse in that position. Furthermore, Ro realized that Seven knew Janeway had done that and now the Borg was looking at the captain narrowly. Janeway merely smiled as innocently as she could and Ro decided that she had her work cut out for her. Janeway had a streak of contrariness in her that was just the sort to get everyone in trouble.
Ro resisted a sigh.
"I will be just a comm badge signal away, Captain."
"Thank you, Lieutenant," Janeway said gently, letting the officer off the hook. "I'll be sure to contact you when I'm ready to go station side." 
Ro inclined her head, turned smartly and left, depressingly aware that Janeway's last words indicated quite clearly that the captain had every intention of leaving the ship sooner or later. She shot a look at Tuvok as she passed by him.
"Thanks a lot," she muttered out the side of her mouth.
Tuvok's response was a quirked eyebrow and what could only be the faintest gleam of amusement in his dark eyes though Ro was sure that if she called him on it, he would deny it to his last breath in a very, logical manner.
The turbolift doors slid shut on the Bajoran who wished that she had never accepted that bloody promotion.

"You are incorrigible," Seven said dryly, eyeing her spouse. 
Janeway leaned back in her chair, linking her hands behind her head and smirking at her spouse.
"Me?" she responded with mock outrage. "You're the one who came in here and tried to accost me."
"I was referring to your teasing of Lt. Ro," Seven said imperturbably. "Nor, did I attempt to 'accost you' as you imply. If I may remind you, I came to your ready room to discuss B'Elanna's request for me to assist her in supervising the repairs. You are the one who altered the subject to last evening and the fact that I came home late. As well as what you had planned had I arrived before you had fallen asleep."
Janeway did her best to look offended. "Can I help it if you've been neglecting me lately?"
Seven raised an eyebrow. "Neglecting you? I attempted to wake you twice last night. Your response was to roll over and resume snoring."
"I do not snore," the captain said with wounded dignity.
"If you have doubt about my veracity, I shall record your next period of slumber so that you may hear it for yourself."
"That won't be necessary." Janeway paused, regarding her spouse closely. "But you did kiss me just now while we are both on duty. You know my opinion regarding such things."
Seven tilted her head. "You placed your right hand on my gluteus maximus and told me if I would acquire the habit of returning home earlier in the evenings, you would have rewarded me 'in a most glorious manner'. You pressed your body against mine and lifted your face. Of course I kissed you." She raised an eyebrow. "What would have been your response, had I not?"
Caught, Janeway lowered her head. "I would have kissed you first, but that didn't give you leave to pick me up and carry me to the couch with the intention of making love to me."
"It seemed a logical progression to me." Seven raised her chin. "You certainly did not raise an objection prior to the chime of the door."
Janeway narrowed her eyes. "You're not going to let me win this argument, are you?"
Seven looked faintly amused. "No."
Janeway did her best to look disgruntled but only managed a fond smile at her spouse. "Seriously, Annika, we can't behave like this on duty. It's unprofessional."
Seven inclined her head agreeably and Janeway noted that she chose not to point out it was the captain who seemed to initiate these things lately.
"In any event," Janeway said, trying to get back to the topic, "the report projections B'Elanna's been sending me look quite promising. It seems that even with their disreputable appearance, this station does have all the required parts and equipment to carry out our repairs. It certainly wouldn't hurt to have your keen eye double checking, however." She paused. "Not to mention the Borg element looming over the dock workers. They seem to respect that."
"Or fear it." Seven hesitated. "Fear can sometimes incite violence, if not against me directly, then against those of my collective. I would feel better if you would remain on the ship during our docking period."
Janeway frowned and lowered her arms, folding her hands neatly in front of her on the desk, unconsciously changing her body language from complete relaxation to that of command firmness, eyes glinting.
"I am perfectly capable of looking after myself. I know that you don't always believe that, but it's true. Seven, I appreciate that you want to protect me. I even appreciate that my crew is starting to take on that attitude more and more. But I can't function that way personally nor will I be effective as a captain. Don't force me to fight you on this."
Seven considered it thoughtfully. "I shall attempt to curb my need to take care of you." She paused. "In return..."
Janeway sighed. "In return?" she said, with a certain amount of trepidation.
"In return, I expect you to be prudent in 'picking your spots'." Seven held up a warning finger. "And do not say that you are always prudent in that manner because you most certainly are not."
Janeway, who had been about to say just that, drew down her brows. "I wasn't," she said, somewhat defensively. Does she really know me this well? she thought dismally. She exhaled audibly. "I promise."
"That is sufficient. Do I have permission to assist B'Elanna?"
"Yes, though it certainly is a change." At Seven's questioning expression, she added; "There was a time when B'Elanna didn't want you anywhere near her engine room, let alone helping her supervise repairs."
"I remember." For a moment, Seven and the captain shared a moment of silence as they cast their thoughts back to that time where the Klingon's main attitude toward the Borg was constant antagonism.
Evolution, Janeway decided. Voyager is constantly evolving and some changes have been better than others.
"This may have less to do with our friendship and more to do with B'Elanna's hope of acquiring some time off to spend with Lt. Ro," Seven pointed out calmly. "Please do not occupy Laren's attention to the point where she is not free at all."
Janeway was startled. "You know, I'm thinking that you planned this."
"Not at all. Merely do not go onto the station when B'Elanna is off duty." She leaned forward. "Kathryn, they are still working out their relationship. Do not interfere."
"Me?" Janeway responded with outrage. "I'm just the poor captain stuck in the middle of all these relationships. You know, I wouldn't have to worry about this in the Alpha Quadrant."
"Perhaps not, but I do not think you object to it as much as you pretend."
Janeway held her spouse's gaze, then grinned. "When did you get to know me so well?"
"It is an ongoing process." Seven stood up. "I must go to engineering and inform B'Elanna that I can assist her."
Janeway also stood up, going around the corner of her desk to capture her spouse before she left. She reached out and hugged her.
"Tonight, you'll come home early?"
"I shall try." Seven hugged her back. She rubbed her cheek against the captain's gently. "I know we require time together, Kathryn. I do not want you to think I am unaware of that."
"I don't," Janeway assured her. It had been difficult for the captain and her astrometrics officer the past few months, crossing paths at random, never seeming to have time to spend together as a couple, their domestic routine disrupted by differing shifts and ongoing crises. It was part of the reason Janeway was letting the 'no affectionate gestures while on duty' rule slide a bit. They had been so busy that spare moments on duty were the only time they did manage to cuddle a bit and remind themselves what being together was like.
"Is this station a safe place, Kathryn?" Seven asked quietly.
"I don't know, but hopefully, it will allow us to bring the ship back up to par and give us some breathing space." She drew back, tilting her head to look into the narrow features of her partner. "This won't last forever, Annika. We'll re-establish a routine for ourselves again, someday."
"That is what carries me through the difficult times," Seven told her. "The promise of being together again in a regular manner so that I can feel as if we are a family unit again."
"I know it's been hard," Janeway said contritely. "Come here."
Obligingly Seven tightened her embrace and lowered her face so that Janeway could capture the full lips. They kissed for some time ... more time than they could probably afford, in fact ... and Janeway had to force herself to release her partner.
"Early tonight," she reminded.

Seven smiled and left.

Janeway sighed and leaned back against her desk, crossing her arms over her chest as she stared at the doors that had slid shut behind her partner. She knew they were better off than most, that her bond with Seven was such that they were able to connect during this uncertain period in ways that others could not. But it was still not good for their marriage nor for them as individuals. It affected their moods, it affected their tempers and it affected their health. Janeway was convinced that a recent injury she suffered took much longer to heal because of the stress and she also believed that Seven's sudden preoccupation with protecting the captain was a direct offshoot from the instability of their lives.
Just a month or so more, she told herself. Already, the first babies had been delivered in sickbay, a strapping, six pound boy to Lt. Swift and Ensign Ryson and a delicate little girl to the Chapmans. The rest were supposed to be born within the next week or so and Janeway supposed she should be grateful for finding this station, despite its disreputable appearance. This also meant that the end of the transitional period was in sight and the beginning of Voyager's new existence as a generational ship would be established. The renovations were nearly complete and the facilities for families were almost all in place.
Then perhaps the crew and their captain would be able to settle into a new routine, one where she could have Seven all to herself on a regular basis.
She blinked as her door chime sounded and she lifted her head.
"Come," she invited.
The door slid open and Janeway was surprised to see the small form of Naomi Wildman enter. For six years, the girl had been the only child on Voyager and the captain wondered how much this whole thing was affecting her in that capacity.
"Naomi," she said with honest pleasure. "Have a seat."
"I can't stay long, Captain," Naomi responded in a small voice. 
Janeway immediately realized something was wrong and she gentled her voice even more.
"What can I do for you?"
The child was having difficulty looking Janeway in the eye and the captain frowned, studying the young girl's features. Born to the Human Ensign Samantha Wildman and her Katarian husband who had been left behind in the Alpha Quadrant, Naomi displayed a line of bone ridges bisecting her forehead. Other than that, she was a typical little girl with long strawberry blonde hair and bright, open features. Except, today, her face was dark and unusually shy.
"I have to resign as your assistant," she said in a rush.
"What?" Janeway asked, profoundly startled. "Why?"
The child had made a determined effort to become the captain's assistant, a role that did not really exist in Starfleet though Janeway had been glad to indulge the small fantasy, providing a set group of tasks for the child to carry out every day.
"Naomi," Janeway asked quietly, when the little girl did not answer. "Please tell me what's wrong."
The little girl looked up and the captain was shocked to see tears shimmering in the cornflower eyes.
"I just can't be your assistant," she said, handing something to the captain. Automatically, Janeway accepted it, realizing to her dismay that it was the pip she had given Naomi from the captain's own collar to indicate her 'rank'. Before Janeway could do or say anything else, the child whirled and darted out the door.
"Naomi," Janeway called, belatedly straightening and going after her. But when she entered the bridge, the turbolift door was sliding shut behind the girl and no matter how much she might feel the need, Janeway really couldn't go after her. Especially when it was clear Naomi did not want her to.
She exchanged a glance with Tuvok who regarded her with faint puzzlement, then looked around the rest of the bridge. Most were intent on their stations, not even having noticed the minor drama which had occurred to the side of the bridge. Feeling very confused and somewhat upset herself, Janeway returned to her ready room, wondering what had made the little girl so unhappy that she no longer wanted to associate with the captain.
 
Seven of Nine finished up her shift in engineering and turned it over to B'Elanna who looked much better than she had when Seven had shown up earlier in the day. Sometimes the Borg thought that the crew took too much of their cue from the captain. Janeway liked to drive herself almost to the point of physical debilitation, so others did as well. B'Elanna had obviously had little sleep the past few days and the break Seven provided by taking over the supervision of the repairs for an extra shift afforded the Klingon a chance to recharge. 
Seven checked the time and hoped that Janeway would accept returning home at 0015 hours as 'early'. Even if it meant early in the morning. She entered her quarters and moved quietly into the bedroom, realizing that the illumination was still up, but her partner wasn't. Janeway's head was back, her mouth slightly open, snoring faintly as a result of her positioning. There was a book resting on the captain's belly where it had fallen, still open, and carefully Seven removed it from beneath Janeway's hands. The Borg quirked an eyebrow at the lurid cover, displaying a tall, dark, handsome man clutching a dewy eyed ingenue to his breast, and was amused as she placed it into the drawer of the captain's night stand. Another book rested nearby, a tome on ancient Egyptian Archaeology that Seven knew Janeway grabbed to disguise her indulgence for 'bodice rippers'. She also placed it in the drawer, hiding the cover of the first and helping the captain maintain the illusion that Seven was unaware of her not-very-secret vice.
Then Seven drew the linens up around the captain, tucking her in, before going to the ensuite where she stripped off her biometric outfit and readied for bed. She cleaned her teeth, brushed out her blonde hair, and returned to the bedroom, crawling onto the mattress next to Janeway who mumbled and rolled over. Seven pulled the smaller woman into her arms, cuddling her close as she settled into the warmth, bringing the lights down with a softly uttered command to the computer. She felt Janeway nuzzle into her throat as the captain often did while asleep, an unconscious seeking of comfort and physical contact in the night.
"Hmm, this is not early," Janeway complained drowsily, surprising her partner.
Seven raised an eyebrow. "I believed you to be asleep. Nor did I intend to wake you."
"We had a date tonight."
Seven sighed. "I am sorry, Kathryn. My extra shift did not ... finish as planned."
Janeway relented, kissing the Borg's jaw tenderly. "Things rarely seem to lately."
She snuggled closer, resting her head on Seven's chest, draping herself across the Borg's torso, her left arm and leg pinning the Borg to the bed. Seven enjoyed it, feeling loved and secure in the possessive embrace.
"I don't suppose you feel like making love?" Janeway asked wistfully.
Seven hesitated.
"I'll take that as a 'no'," Janeway answered for her. She brushed her lips over Seven's jaw. "That's okay, darling, I don't really feel like it either."
Seven suspected that to be somewhat of a falsehood but she appreciated that her partner was respecting the Borg's lack of interest just as Seven respected Janeway's when positions were reversed.
"I do like holding you," Seven told her, kissing the captain's forehead. "This is what I have looked forward to all evening. Coming home and putting my arms around you."
She felt the muscles in Janeway's face twitch against the skin of her chest and she knew the captain must be smiling.
"It's ironic."
"What is?"
"Things are so unsettled and yet, I'm so happy, just lying here in your arms." Janeway paused briefly. "I used to think that I would sacrifice anything to get my ship home, but if it meant giving this up, if it meant not being able to share my life with you, then I would gladly stay in the Delta Quadrant forever."
Seven was vastly impressed by this statement. She knew better than anyone how much Janeway wanted ... needed ... to get her crew and ship home safely.
"You will have both," Seven said.
"Promise?"
"I do," Seven whispered. "If it is at all within my power to accomplish, then yes, I do promise."
"Sweet talker," Janeway accused with gentle humor, but Seven knew she was pleased.
Another comfortable silence passed and Seven felt drowsiness steal over her. She was aware of Janeway's hand rubbing her belly lightly and it soothed her, making her sleepy.
"Naomi resigned as my captain's assistant today," Janeway said suddenly.
Startled, Seven forced her eyes open.
"Indeed?" She tried to get her mind working again. "Why?"
"She didn't tell me, but I have a pretty good idea."
"Yes?"
"Isn't it obvious?" the captain said, a touch of bitterness in her tone. "I'm too frightening to be around. After all, I sacrificed a child to save the ship. She's probably afraid I'll sacrifice her next."
Seven blinked. She must have missed that encounter.
"When did you do that?"
Janeway inhaled slowly. "Ensign White's child."
Seven frowned and gently stroked her partner's hair. The attack which had damaged the ship so recently, had also contributed to a crewmember's offspring being stillborn ... but there were many factors involved and Janeway's decision to turn and fight Voyager's pursuers was the only tactically sound choice she could have made. Yet, it was her partner's nature to take responsibility for all things ... even those over which she had absolutely no control.
"Kathryn," Seven admonished gently, "You take too much on yourself. You were not to blame for Ensign White losing her child. It was unfortunate and sad, but definitely not your fault." She hugged her tightly. "In any event, I fail to see how the encounter with the alien vessels is in any way, related to Naomi."
"What else could it be, Annika?" Janeway asked sadly.
"There are many possibilities. At best, you are speculating about her motivations. At worst, you are seeking reasons to punish yourself. That is not acceptable. I shall find out why Naomi no longer wishes to pursue her role as your assistant. In the meantime, I suggest that you not concern yourself unduly about it."
Janeway was silent. "Is that an order?" she asked finally.
Seven considered it. "Yes."
"You've become quite ... feisty, lately," Janeway noted, wiggling closer.
"It is the only way in which I can maintain a position of equality with you, and it is my understanding that a joining of equals is the most desirous form of matrimony."
"It is." Janeway suddenly looked sheepish. "Even if I still try to throw my weight around here when I shouldn't."
"I have learned to differentiate between your role as captain and your role as my spouse. Sometimes the line is blurred and in the rest of the ship, I shall always err on the side of the captain. However, here, in our quarters..."
"Message understood," Janeway replied. She had lifted her head from the Borg's chest as Seven spoke so that she could look into her partner's face. "In private, you get to tell me when I'm out of line."
"Not just 'out of line', Kathryn," Seven noted thoughtfully. "You must trust in me enough to believe it when I tell you when you are successful. I have discovered that since our joining, my opinion has a certain influence in your decisions, both personal and professional, in a way that you allow no one else. It is a great responsibility and one that I am honored to hold. I swear to you I shall never betray it."
"I know, my darling." Janeway's face was soft, vulnerable. "You're the only one I would trust with it."
Seven studied the level eyes regarding her, the way they were shaded perfectly between grey and blue, visible only because of her enhanced implant that allowed her to see in the low illumination. It seemed that the stars themselves were caught in the captain's gaze and she felt varied emotions rise strong within her; love, admiration, tenderness ... and the beginnings of desire. She inhaled deeply and entwined the fingers of her free hand with the one Janeway was resting on her chest, bringing it up to kiss the captain's palm gently, lingeringly. 
An elegant eyebrow quirked and the corner of Janeway's mouth curled upward.
"Darling?"
"I believe," Seven said softly, "that I have changed my mind."
"About?"
"Making love."
The flash of teeth appeared white between the wine shaded lips. Her voice dropped to a husky trill, a reverberation that shivered the Borg's very bones. "That's certainly a woman's prerogative."
"It is?"
"An ancient Human saying, my love," Janeway whispered, brushing her lips over Seven's, tasting them with slow pleasure.
Seven filed it away as something to pursue later and returned the kisses, soft, gentle, just a hint of the arousal building within her. She drew her hands down Kathryn's back, trailing over her spine languidly, her fingertips bumping against the slight protrusions of bone. Kathryn had such a lovely back, smooth, silken, flowing gracefully down to the full buttocks that Seven loved to touch. She touched them now, cupping each one and squeezing them as she pulled Janeway closer to her.
Janeway made a small sound in the back of her throat, one of delight and she pressed down, grinding into Seven. Seven could feel the captain's small breasts press against her own, the nipples hardening to prod into her chest provocatively. Their kisses deepened, lips parting to allow the access of tongues, wet and warm, exploring with an intimacy that Seven thought she would be perfectly content to experience for hours. But Kathryn seemed less willing to wait that long, her legs parting to fall on either side of Seven's thigh, the captain's warm, wet area bathing the Borg's upper leg with moisture.
Janeway's respiration quickened and she undulated briefly, the little nodule skidding along the firm muscle of Seven's thigh. That stoked the Borg's desire higher, the flicker of flame flaring into a full fire, and abruptly she pulled Kathryn closer, kissing her with deep passion which the captain clearly enjoyed, returning the kiss with demanding intensity. Seven had to pull back to catch her breath, sucking in air harshly as Janeway nipped and nibbled at the Borg's chin and neck, tracing along her jaw, up to her ear.
"Oh, love," Kathryn husked, the wonderful voice, as always, serving to heighten Seven's pleasure even more. "Do you know how beautiful you are, how very much I want you?"
"I love you," Seven responded, far less verbal than her spouse but just as sincere.
She nudged Kathryn over so that they were both lying on their sides, allowing the young woman to run her right hand firmly down Janeway's ribs, over her hip and to the juncture between the captain's legs, fingertips playing at the apex of the crease. Obligingly, Janeway drew her knee up to rest it on Seven's hip, granting her lover full access to her.
Seven made another sound, soft and inviting, tracing lightly over the warm flesh of swollen crease, barely touching with her fingers, almost trembling as she felt the moist heat awaiting her.
"Annika," Kathryn breathed, a wealth of meaning in the name, aching, anticipating ... imploring. "Don't tease."
Seven smiled, unaware that she did so, and slipped her fingers along the tender flesh, seeking out the nodule, fondling it gently but firmly, knowing how her partner liked to be touched, where she enjoyed pressure and conversely, where she required the utmost tenderness. Janeway buried her face in Seven's neck as she moaned loudly, her hands running over the woman's back and shoulders, coming up to tangle in the blonde hair, then she drew back, her gaze wide and wild, staring into Seven's eyes.
"Kiss me," she commanded in what was almost a growl.
Seven did so gladly, covering the smaller woman's lips, kissing her firmly as she felt Janeway surge against her, catching the even louder moan in her mouth, swallowing it as she slipped her fingertips down to the opening. It welcomed her penetration eagerly, the Borg slipping fully into Kathryn with two fingers as the smooth, clinging walls surrounded the digits in a most intimate embrace.
Seven took a second to compose herself, finding it far too easy to lose herself in the sensation of being inside her partner. She tried to concentrate on what she sensed from Kathryn, taking her cues from the smaller woman in when and how to stroke, pressing deep inside to explore the varied textures, then withdrawing a little to find that smooth spot, which caused the captain to twitch uncontrollably as she pressed on it. She brought her thumb into play, manipulating it over Kathryn's hardened ridge, finding an even rhythm with her hand. Janeway tore her lips away from Seven's, crying out loudly as she began to spasm, clutching at her spouse, nails digging into the Borg's shoulders.
Seven closed her eyes as Janeway finally relaxed, adoring her with everything she was, luxuriating in the pleasure she felt at being able to share this intimate and physically connecting expression of their love. Janeway swallowed and purred, pushing Seven onto her back.
"My turn," the captain murmured with anticipation and delight.
Seven smiled again as the captain trailed down her body, hands and mouth exploring the Borg avidly, sensitive fingers drawing the most wonderful sensations from her spouse. Seven's head went back and her lips parted as she felt Kathryn's mouth cover her intimate region, the Borg whispering her lover's name to the night while the captain tasted her, pleasuring her with lips and tongue until it quickly overwhelmed the young woman. Seven arched, trembling as the orgasm rippled through her, every nerve ending completely centered on that perfect connection between Janeway's mouth and the young woman.
"Oh, Kathryn." she cried, her right hand tangled in the auburn hair, holding the captain to her as the other, mesh-covered one, bent and crumpled the metal bar at the head of their bed.
Afterward, they snuggled together, sleep claiming Janeway quickly as she settled heavily in the Borg's arms. Seven remained awake a little longer, taking these few moments, as she always did, to appreciate the woman in her arms, to bask in the great joy she had found in simply being with her. The last thought Seven had before surrendering to slumber herself was a profound gratitude for the prerogative she had to change her mind, so glad she had availed herself of this newfound Human female liberty.
 
B'Elanna Torres stepped off the turbolift on deck three, feeling relaxed for the first time in a week and a half. The station engineers had finally proven their ability to the Klingon's exacting standards and she was able to ease off her constant supervision, bringing her routine back down to a single duty rotation rather than the double and triple shifts she had been pulling. She was keenly aware that if it hadn't been for Seven, she probably would have collapsed somewhere in the middle of the first week and it was for this reason that she was on the way to the captain's quarters. In her hands was a small, brightly wrapped package, a gesture of thanks to the Borg. It was certainly not anything B'Elanna would have thought of herself a few months earlier but when Ro Laren mentioned casually when they crossed paths a day or so ago that the engineer should 'find a way to thank Seven', Klingon found herself here, bearing gifts. 
B'Elanna just hoped Seven would like it, since gift giving was not a skill she was particularly adept at.
She pressed the chime to the door, waiting patiently until the door slid open to reveal the slender form of the Borg.
"B'Elanna Torres," Seven identified in her very precise tones. Her eyebrow quirked slightly, indicating her surprise at seeing the engineer. "Lunch has already occurred."
"Jeez, Seven," B'Elanna said, brushing past her to enter the quarters. "I don't come by just to eat."
Seven blinked. "I do not believe you have ever visited me in these quarters when it was not meal time."
B'Elanna opened her mouth to respond, thought about it, then nodded as she conceded the point. "Today I dropped by to give you this."
Seven accepted the small package which was wrapped in silvery paper, examining it carefully.
"It is not my birthday," she noted with some confusion though B'Elanna saw how the Borg's pale eyes had lit up with pleasure at the prospect of a present.
Sometimes, she's such a little kid, the Klingon noted fondly.
"It's not a birthday present. It's to thank you for covering the beta shift the last week and a half while the worst of the repair work was being done."
"Indeed?" Seven responded. She raised her eyes, meeting B'Elanna's. "Thank you."
"You're welcome." B'Elanna paused. "Are you going to open it now?"
"May I?" Seven asked with a hint of excitement.
"Sure." B'Elanna went over to take a seat on the couch, glancing around. "Where's the captain?"
"She is visiting the stationmaster," Seven remarked absently as she concentrated on carefully detaching the wrapping paper where it was fastened. "She hopes that with all the repairs finished, she can negotiate for the station work teams to turn their attention on completing the remaining renovations."
B'Elanna stifled a sigh. The Klingon had wondered where Ro had gone after a query to the ship's computer had indicated only that the security officer was not on the ship. If Ro was with the captain, she was on duty and no doubt, had her hands full. Somehow, B'Elanna didn't think that she would be having dinner with the Bajoran this evening either.
"These are wonderful," Seven said suddenly, regarding her newly discovered treasures. She beamed at the Klingon. "Thank you, B'Elanna."
The engineer squirmed uncomfortably at the bright smile on her friend's face even as she was bashfully pleased at how enthusiastically her gift had been received.
"Well, I heard you were expanding your wardrobe a bit. I thought that you might find a use for some decorative hair clips to go with your new clothes."
"I shall." Seven took a seat in the armchair, placing the gift box carefully on the coffee table. "Are you off duty now? Can you visit for a while?"
"Yeah, Vorik and Carey are riding herd on those jokers from Balleyport," B'Elanna responded before relenting. "They're not so bad. Not too polished, of course, and crude as hell, but they do know their stuff. If the captain can get them to tackle the remaining renovations before they leave, that would be great. It wouldn't take them long at all to get those done ... not with the equipment and manpower they have." 
"Finding this station was a most fortunate happenstance."
"Well, after the luck we've had the last little while, it was about time some of it started turning good," the Klingon noted, relaxing against the cushions. "I guess things happen in cycles .. a little good news, a little bad."
"How goes your relationship with Ro Laren?"
B'Elanna resisted the urge to roll her eyes. That was Seven all right. One never knew what she was going to come out with next. And she never danced around a subject, just lunged for the point like a targe going after a flesh-covered bone. B'Elanna's Human half was appalled by it while her Klingon side fully appreciated the directness of it.
"We're doing alright," B'Elanna said cautiously.
"Are you copulating?"
"Kahless, Seven," B'Elanna burst out. "Don't you have any discretion?"
Seven blinked, puzzled. "I was unaware you required it. After all, it is you who initiated such conversations in the past, particularly regarding the explicit details of your sexual escapades with Chakotay."
B'Elanna remembered those conversations quite well and she could feel the heat in her face as she flushed.
"Okay, but this is different," she protested lamely. "Laren is ... different."
"How so?"
B'Elanna tried to find a way out of this one.
"She just is," she mumbled.
Seven paused. "You are not copulating," she concluded.
<>B'Elanna groaned. "No, we're not." 
"Why not?" 
<>Now B'Elanna did roll her eyes. "We just haven't." She breathed deeply for a few moments. "We're going slow, 'Nik," she said, dropping her voice in a tone of confidentiality as she utilized the diminutive of Seven's Human designation. "This is real and neither of us want to move too quickly ... or mess it up somehow by jumping the gun, you know?" 
Seven frowned thoughtfully. "I did not in the beginning with Kathryn, but after she lost her memory, I learned the value of taking one's time in building a relationship." 
"Then there's the whole female thing," B'Elanna blurted, the words out her mouth before she could stop them. "Neither of us have ever been with a woman."
Seven regarded her evenly. "And that is an obstacle?"
"Men and women just aren't ... the same, 'Nik," B'Elanna told her glumly.
"So I have been informed," Seven replied, seemingly unimpressed by such data. She quirked an eyebrow. "What is it that you fear?"
B'Elanna bristled at the implication of cowardice, then felt the annoyance dissipate as quickly as she had to acknowledge the accuracy of Seven's question.
"I don't know," she admitted finally. "Maybe I'm afraid that a woman would be a lot harder to please than a man. Or maybe I'm just afraid that I'll be too much for her. God knows, I've been too much for a lot of the men in my life ... or too little."
Seven tilted her head slightly, curious. "Explain," she requested gently.
B'Elanna was absolutely humiliated to discover tears stinging her eyes and she blinked rapidly, hoping that the Borg wouldn't notice, though truth be told, there was little that escaped Seven's notice.
"I don't know that our sex will be any good."
"It shall not," Seven said with assurance.
Startled, B'Elanna looked at her for an explanation.
"There is a difference between 'sex' and making love. The former can be 'fun' but it is rarely as fulfilling as the latter. You must always make love to Laren, B'Elanna, not merely have sex with her. If you remember that, it will always be wonderful."
<>B'Elanna was speechless. "How do you know?" she asked, finally finding her voice after a moment or two. 
"When Kathryn and I utilize our accessory, it is occasionally more an exercise in mechanics than anything else. I am always aware that it is a device providing the stimulation rather than when Kathryn and I make love naturally." 
B'Elanna knew she was staring. She was even aware that her mouth had probably fallen open.
"An 'accessory'?" she repeated stupidly.
"Oh, I had not realized," Seven remarked, as if remembering something, "You have never seen it, even though it was originally your suggestion."
"My suggestion?" But Seven had already uncoiled from the chair and disappeared into the bedroom. When she returned, she was bearing a plain wooden box that she opened in order to display the contents to a shocked and flabbergasted chief engineer.
"Kahless's crotch," the engineer swore, staring at the thirty inch long, greyish representative of Humanoid male genitalia. "You don't use that on the captain?!?"
Seven frowned, as if wondering what the Klingon's problem was, then brightened as she realized what the objection might be based on.
"It is fully adjustable," Seven told her, drawing out a small remote control and changing the settings. "It also has options that include varied speeds of vibration along with a wide range of colors and patterns." Before the Klingon's eyes, the artificial penis shrank to more Human standards and altered its shade to a bright, neon blue.
B'Elanna inhaled, realizing she had stopped breathing only when she grew lightheaded as she automatically accepted the artificial penis Seven handed it to her. She nearly dropped it as she felt how realistic it was in terms of both texture and temperature, if not in color.
"Where the hell did you get this?"
"From the replicator. It was under the recreational program: Sexual Aids, Multi-species. It is called the Wonder Wand 9000™ and seems to fulfill its function adequately. It required 325 equipment replicator rations but fortunately, I had a great many saved from the time I first came on board Voyager."
"I was just yanking your chain about sex toys, Seven," B'Elanna protested as she gingerly handled the device. "I never thought you'd actually take me up on it."
Though the uncomfortable memory of another jocular suggestion regarding fur-lined cuffs and whips had also been taken seriously by the Borg with unpleasant consequences. The Klingon had found herself dangling upside down off the catwalk in engineering, suspended only by the iron grip of Seven's Borg enhanced left hand wrapped around her ankle as the young woman demanded an apology. It had been a lesson suitably impressed upon the Klingon and she had curbed her 'suggestions' shortly after that. But not, apparently, before suggesting a 'sex toy' to the Borg.
"Does it really work?" she asked dubiously.
Seven took a moment to think about it carefully. "Kathryn enjoys it on occasion," she allowed finally, with a certain amount of reserve. "And since I enjoy pleasing her, it is not an unappealing exercise. I derive a certain amount of appreciation for the variety it provides. If you believe that being with a female is mechanically uncertain, perhaps assuming the role of the 'male' may assist your confidence."
B'Elanna went to rub her forehead before suddenly realizing that she was still hanging onto the artificial penis. She quickly tossed it back into the box.
"Maybe I should just keep it simple, at least, in the beginning."
"That would be wise."
The Borg reset the controls, repositioned the device properly in the box, and shut it tightly before carrying it back into the bedroom. B'Elanna covered her eyes with her hands and tried to purge her mind of the very vivid and quite discomforting mental images of Seven utilizing the wonder wand on the captain or worse, the captain using it on Seven. Right then and there, the engineer decided that she knew far too much about her best friend's love life and vowed never to bring it up in a conversation again.

Ro Laren stood silently in the corner of the office as Captain Janeway and Stationmaster Twimm discussed the additional work the woman wanted the station to perform on Voyager in completing final renovations. If Janeway could arrange it, Voyager would be able to leave here with its crew back on a regular shift schedule. What that would mean the world in terms of morale would be considerable and she hoped that Janeway would be able to pull it off, though she was dismayed at the hard line Janeway was taking in the negotiations. Particularly when one considered that the form of exchange was an element easily replicated by the ship. 
Yet, when it was all over, the stationmaster was actually sweating a bit as he shook Janeway's hand, having finally conceded to every one of her demands.
"I have to admit Captain Janeway ... Kathryn," he began. He hesitated. "May I call you Kathryn?"
Janeway graciously inclined her head, granting her permission, a smoke stick angled out the corner of her mouth, a thin line of grey smoke rising to join the rest which fogged the small office.
"Kathryn, you are one hell of a negotiator," he said with nothing but admiration in his voice. He fluffed out his reddish mane which had gotten a bit limp in the course of the bargaining session. "I don't suppose I could convince you to base yourself out of here for awhile? The station will supply all your needs and in return, you take care of any deals I need to make?"
"Sorry, Twimm," Janeway responded in a husky growl that Ro was convinced resulted from the damn smokesticks. The Bajoran allowed in her deepest, most secret thoughts, that it was sort of sexy though, even if the cause of it was anything but. "We still have a long journey ahead of us, and it's one that we really don't wish to delay any longer than necessary."
He nodded, accepting the point, yet clearly regretful. "If you ever change your mind, you know where we are. The offer will stand. In the meantime, I'll get the crews onto those areas immediately. We should have Voyager at one hundred percent by late this evening."
"Thank you," Janeway said, getting up from her chair. It was a measure of the stationmaster's growing regard for the feisty little Starfleet captain that he also rose to his feet as she left.
Ro gulped the fresher air in the outer lobby gratefully, even with the arid tang of conduit coolant drying her nasal passages. She tried not to gasp as she passed the sullen form of the receptionist who glared at the Federation representatives, obviously thinking that the Starfleet captain was becoming entirely too cozy with her boss. The Bajoran's head still ached a little from the smoke, though the captain seemed not to be suffering at all. Indeed, Janeway kept the cigarillo lit, chewing it slightly between her teeth as she strode jauntily along. The Bajoran wondered how Seven would react when she saw the box full of the smokesticks that Twimm had bestowed on Janeway as a gift early on in the negotiations. It was now tucked neatly under the captain's arm as the women left the administration area of the station. Somehow, Ro did not think Seven would be particularly pleased to see it. 
"You know, this place is beginning to grow on me," Janeway noted.
"It's certainly growing something," Ro mumbled as she nimbly avoided brushing against a peculiar green patch on the hull that looked suspiciously like mold. She was grateful the Doctor had insisted on full spectrum immunization before anyone entered the station. She could only imagine the strains of bacteria breeding in this atmosphere.
"Uh, Captain," she offered as they came to a staircase. "The docking section can be reached more quickly if we go this way."
"Oh, I'm not going back to the ship yet, Lieutenant," Janeway said, descending the curling stairs.
Ro stifled her sigh and followed her captain. "May I ask where we're going?" 
"I'm going to check out the main promenade." 
"Is that wise, Captain?" Ro responded, knowing it was exactly the wrong thing to say the second it left her lips ... even before she saw the steely glint enter the eyes that were suddenly more grey than blue, or the way the captain's jaw stuck out pugnaciously.
"Lieutenant, if you wish to return to the ship, you are more than welcome to do so," Janeway said in the sort of tone that left no question about it being negotiable. "But I'm going to check out the promenade."
"Yes, Captain," Ro replied smartly, unconsciously straightening her spine as she hurried to match the smaller woman's brisk stride. "I would prefer to accompany you."
"Your choice," Janeway said with casual disregard.
To Ro's dismay, the captain made a bee-line away from the merchant section to where the drinking establishments resided, choosing the entrance to what had to be the most disreputable looking one of the bunch, though none were the type Ro was particularly anxious to enter. The Bajoran was very aware of several ocular sense organs focusing on the two women as they came in, the raucous sound of multi-language conversations dying to a mutter before starting up again, louder than before. Janeway seemed oblivious to it and without breaking stride, found a table in the corner where she sat down regally, her back to the wall, facing out to the rest of the room. Ro hastily took a seat next to the captain, wanting her back to the wall as well.
The captain tossed a few grey triangles onto the table top, the clink managing to cut through even the various loud discussions and before the ring had died away, there was a greasy waiter looming over them. Unobtrusively, Ro reached down and touched the hilt of the stiletto in her boot ... just to make sure it was still there.
"Whattayawant?" he grunted, reaching down to pick up one of the coins, biting on it to check its purity. His beady eyes lit up greedily and he attempted a more friendly expression that did little to make him more appealing.
"The house ale." Janeway glanced over at Ro. "Lieutenant?"
Ro nodded shortly, indicating that the captain's selection would also be sufficient for her. She had no intention of drinking it, of course, but she needed something in front of her so as not to attract attention. Before long, two mugs filled to the brim with a foamy, reddish colored liquid was slammed down onto the table, the overflow gushing over the sides a little. Ro hoped that meant any germs on the mug rims would be killed by the power of the alcohol. Or the smell alone that served to make the Bajoran a little light-headed.
Janeway took a healthy swallow from her mug and looked expectantly at Ro. The Bajoran picked up her tankard, trying not to get a good indication of its cleanliness ... or lack thereof ... in the dim illumination, and sipped it cautiously.
It went down easily enough but when it hit the bottom, it was as if a fire had been ignited and it took everything Ro had not to gasp like a fish out of water. Janeway's eyes narrowed, as if amused and she took another swig before she slouched back against her chair, looking over the room contemplatively. Ro didn't know what the hell was going on here but she doubted she would find out by asking directly so she maintained her own counsel as Janeway finished the first brew and signaled for another.
But moments went by with the captain offering nothing and finally, Ro was prompted to initiate the conversation.
"Permission to speak freely?"
Janeway quirked an elegant eyebrow and Ro wondered how the woman managed to look so damned classy in such a dump. Or maybe it was the contrast that gave her such an imperious air, particularly with the smoke stick in one hand and a mug of ale in the other.
"Granted," the captain said, stubbing the cigarillo out into the small dish provided by the waiter when he had brought the second round.
"Is there a point to this?" Ro asked, assuming that Janeway would know what she was referring to and hoping that the captain respected her enough not to pretend otherwise.
The captain smiled faintly. "Let's just say it's time for me to remind people who's the Starfleet captain here, and what restrictions can and can't be placed on me."
Ro contemplated her ale thoughtfully, the foam having subsided considerably. "And coming to this bar will prove that?" 
Janeway ceded the point with a twitch of her cheek. "Maybe not. Maybe I just want to have a little fun. I am allowed to, you know. Once in a while." 
Ro inhaled slowly. Great, she noted gloomily, a captain with a mid-life crisis. That's all I need.
Or maybe it was just that the six years of being out in the Delta Quadrant without support had finally caught up to Janeway. Ro supposed she could understand that but she wished to hell it hadn't happened on the Bajoran's watch. She wondered if somewhere, Tuvok was getting the Vulcan equivalent to a belly laugh out of it.
"Don't look so down, Ro," Janeway remarked dryly. "I promise, one more round and then we can go back to the ship."
"Thank you, Captain," Ro said gratefully.
Janeway laughed, a wonderfully rich, penetrating laugh and suddenly Ro had a hint of why B'Elanna was so impressed and influenced by the powerful woman. It went beyond just being in the presence of a commanding demeanor, it was charm and warmth and a hundred other things that made up the person who was Kathryn Janeway. Ro wondered what Seven had done to so completely captivate the captain, how such a cold fish as the Borg had managed to attract this vital and vivacious woman. Ro knew for a fact, that she would never accept the formidable challenge of being involved with such a dominating personality.
Although, she noted to herself, B'Elanna was no slouch in the dominating personality department either. Without question, interesting times lay ahead for the Bajoran, and Ro wondered if she would survive them.
Loud voices interrupted her musing and she frowned, glancing over to another part of the room where a game of chance had apparently degenerated into a shoving match. One of the players, a huge alien with leathery skin and a curved down snout, shoved another over a nearby table, sending him crashing to the floor.
"Uh, Captain, perhaps we should skip the next round," she said tightly.
"Perhaps you're correct, Lieutenant." Janeway shifted uneasily in her chair.
The two women waited until things has settled a bit, and rose from their seats. They were too late to make a graceful exit. The two aliens who had been talking intently to the original aggressor apparently said something wrong and were rewarded with clouts across their respective heads by one massive arm.
Things disintegrated quickly from there, as these things were wont to do, and the next thing Ro knew, she was backed up against the wall, trading blows with a bar patron. Dispatching him with a quick straight-armed palm to the chin, snapping his head back, she glanced over at Janeway just in time to see a burly alien reach out and grab the captain, twisting her around. Janeway did not hesitate, scooping up her mug as she went and bringing it around in a crimson liquid sweep to smash it into the alien's temple. The glass shattered impressively, the alien going down like a ton of bricks. Ro realized that this wasn't the first bar fight the captain had ever participated in. Indeed, her next move against a follow-up opponent indicated that she more than knew how to take care of herself in such a situation. Then the Bajoran was suddenly much too busy to watch out for the captain, being completely occupied with watching out for herself as two more assailants lunged at her.
Ro ducked a roundhouse and as the momentum swung her assailant around, she planted her foot in the broad backside presented and launched him across the room into another table. She went to her knees as a chair shattered over her back and she rolled to her feet, finding space to allow her speed and reflexes free rein, though she hesitated about reaching down for her knife. So far, the brawl had restrained itself to fisticuffs, and bringing a weapon into it might only welcome the appearance of others, directed at her and the captain. Reluctantly, she let go of the dagger's hilt and raised her arm to block the next blow.
A wave of ale washed over her, leaving her sticky and reeking of alcohol, and she blinked furiously as she shook her head. She cleared her vision in time to see someone pick Janeway up by the seat of her pants and the scruff of her neck, dragging the captain lengthwise along the top of the bar.
The captain raised her arms protectively in front of her as she plowed through the leftover mugs, a spray of glass and liquid rising in her wake as she careened down the counter, shot impressively off the end of the bar and landed on a table, the entire thing collapsing beneath this Humanoid projectile.
Tuvok is just going to kill me, Ro thought in despair as she frantically tried to make her way over to Janeway. Even if I survive this insanity, the chief is just going to shred me into bits and throw the remainder out the nearest airlock. And the worst part was, he would do it in that calm, infinitely logical Vulcan manner of his, not once raising his voice.
Ro picked up a nearby chair and used it to clear the path to where she had last seen Janeway. She found the captain holding her own with a drunken alien who loomed over her but seemed unable to wrap up the quick little human female in a bear hug, though whether he wanted to kill her or kiss her was uncertain, judging by the leer on his face. Ro finished the whole business by slamming her battering ram across the back of his head, dropping him in his tracks. 
Janeway shot her a flash of gratitude before turning to her next opponent and Ro realized with a certain amount of disgruntlement that the captain was actually enjoying this. Certainly the little grin which curled the elegant lips was not the sort of thing a Starfleet captain should be displaying as she gleefully hammered a patron who had lunged at her, avoiding his grasp and using a table leg to belt him one across the chops. Ro felt weariness dragging at her limbs as she blocked the clumsy punches of one of the card players whose game had started the whole mess. She finished him with a one-two combination from her martial arts training before being bowled over by a smaller form who tackled her about the knees. She used the momentum to continue the roll, using her legs to send him flying over her head where he crashed resoundingly into the wall.
Then there were yells at the bar's entrance, the appearance of uniforms indicating that finally, someone had called station security. It had taken the constables a while to wander down from their office but once they were there, they waded in without hesitation, breaking up the brawl with the age-old technique of administering well placed blows on the various combatants with their night sticks.
They were headed directly for the captain and Ro reached for Janeway, concern for her safety her primary goal. She never saw the blow that smacked across the back of her head, sending her plunging into complete and utter darkness.
 
The trial was short, sweet and to the point. A hastily summoned magistrate glared balefully at the dozen or so bedraggled and reeking combatants lined up before him and he slammed his gavel down on his bench with great authority. 
"Thirty days or three hundred credits," he bellowed. "Lock 'em up and contact their ships. When their shipmates come to bail them out, make sure their captains know that this trash is restricted to the docking section only for the rest of their stay on Balleyport Station."
Janeway kept her head down and obediently went where she was directed, trying to be unobtrusive as she quietly told the clerk the name of her ship and the officer who was supposed to be contacted. Beside her, Ro staggered woozily, trying to go where the captain guided her, giving every indication of being drunk rather than punch drunk. Smelling like it too, both women liberally covered by alcohol stains.
Janeway hoped that Tuvok would not share where he was going and what he had to do with anyone else on the ship when he came to bail her and Ro out. The Vulcan's discretion was above reproach but this one might be one that even he couldn't handle on the QT.
Ro tried gamely to retain her balance as the captain gently guided her through the narrow corridor and into the small room, half carrying her over to the grimy bunk that had seen better days. A force shield snapped up behind them with an unpleasant whine and the only good thing Janeway could find in all this aggravation was that apparently she and her crewmember were to have the cell to themselves. The captain made sure Ro was as comfortable as the situation would allow, tossing the thin blanket over her, before she sat down glumly on the cold deck at the head of the bunk, leaning her back against the wall, drawing her knees up to her chest.
How do I manage to get myself into these messes? Janeway brooded darkly, resting her chin on her arms which were crossed over the top of her knees. And why did she get herself into such messes? Perhaps that was the better question.
She couldn't deny that the recent changes the ship had been undergoing had caused a strain on her in a way that no one else, not even her partner, could truly understand. She had never wanted the unique responsibility that commanding a ship with families could bring but suddenly, it was thrust upon her, one more thing added to the guilt of having stranded the vessel here in the Delta Quadrant in the first place. And then there was Seven's recent protectiveness, her obvious desire to take care of Janeway, sliding over that fine line to the point of coddling her, suggesting that perhaps the captain should not do the very things that made her captain.
Like getting into brawls dockside? her little voice offered sarcastically.
She had chafed under Seven's solicitous concern for her, despite knowing that the Borg wouldn't be so worried about Kathryn if she didn't love her so much. It made Janeway feel confined, restrained and when she had the opportunity to break loose a little, she had taken it.
Now look where we are, her little voice noted in abject disgust. There's a line between kicking over your traces and making a bloody fool of yourself . I think you just crossed it, Katie, going about warp eight.
She bent her head, closing her eyes as she sighed audibly.
"Uhnn ... Captain?"
Janeway's eyes flew open and she glanced over at Ro. "Laren, how do you feel?" she asked anxiously, reaching up to touch the Bajoran's forehead gently.
Ro winced and inhaled sharply. "Been better, but I'll survive."
"I'm truly sorry you were hurt, Lieutenant," Janeway said contritely. "I probably should have chosen a better class of bar."
"I'm not sure there is one on this station." Ro blinked, squinting as if the light hurt her eyes. "Where are we?"
"In jail," Janeway admitted.
Ro considered that. "Why don't we just contact the ship and beam back?"
"We could, but that would reveal our transporter technology, which I'd rather not do. And fleeing custody is not exactly the way to formulate good diplomatic ties. We were, after all, guilty of the crime and they did give us a fair trail. We had no defense."
"Wonderful," Ro muttered. "I must have missed that."
 Janeway studied her intently as she tried to keep the note of hopefulness out of her voice. "But if you're really in difficulty, just say the word and I'll have us beamed directly to sickbay."
Ro hesitated, thinking about it. "No, I'm fine," she said finally.
Janeway wondered if the Bajoran was deliberately being obstinate, refusing the easy out just to punish the captain for getting them into this mess. She supposed she deserved it to a certain extent but she vowed to keep a close eye on her officer in any event. She didn't want Ro to ignore her injury just for the sake of proving she could be as tough as Janeway. After all, that was one of Janeway's stunts; to portray the reputedly invulnerable, always-in-control captain even as her body was falling apart.
"So how long are we supposed to wait here?" the Bajoran asked after a few moments of dismal contemplation of their location.
Janeway found a spot on the opposite wall to concentrate on. "I listed Tuvok as our contact officer in the courtroom. He'll be here to bail us out as soon as he can get away."
Ro closed her eyes, looking honestly pained. "I wish you had made our contact officer Chakotay instead. Tuvok won't be pleased that I couldn't keep you out of trouble."
Janeway managed a brief smile. "Don't let him bully you, Lieutenant. He can't keep me out of trouble either. He never could." She sighed. "Besides, Chakotay would have never let me live this down. I'm hoping Tuvok handles this in his customary discrete manner."
Ro looked at her in surprise. "Has he had cause to do this a lot? Cover up indiscretions on your part?"
Janeway blushed faintly. "I wouldn't put it that way, exactly," she said uncomfortably. "Let's just say that he's had opportunity to practice various techniques in bailing me out of difficulty."
The memory of an incident in the Alpha Quadrant during her first command, crossed her mind, an encounter with a snobbish fop at a party and the resulting conflict that required her chief of security to smuggle her off the planet in a large suitcase. Sometimes, Janeway thought that if her crewmembers were to suddenly discover all the misadventures she and Tuvok had been through, they wouldn't look at either of them the same way again, and that wouldn't be good at all. Command staff needed a certain mystique, even here in the Delta Quadrant.
There was a pause as the two women contemplated the walls around them, bare even of the minor entertainment of graffiti.
"Where's the gift Twimm gave you?" Ro asked finally.
"Lost it somewhere in the fight," Janeway responded glumly.
"Shame," Ro remarked in a tone that indicated it was not at all.
Janeway, in contrast, felt a real twinge of regret at having lost the cigarillos. Still, she knew it was doubtful Seven would have allowed her to smoke them anyway ... though possibly that was why Janeway had accepted them in the first place. Silence fell between the two Federation officers again, a distinct lack of topics making itself felt between the captain and the Bajoran.
"Well," Janeway said with forced cheer, after several long moments, "at least this gives us a chance to get to know each other better."
"It does?" Ro said with a touch of wariness.
"You know, I went over your records after your true identity was revealed. I wanted to ask you about Garon II."
Ro's face tightened. "Most captains inevitably do," she said in a voice devoid of inflection as she sat up on the bunk.
Janeway assumed her most compassionate expression, getting up to join her, sitting down carefully next to the slender Bajoran.
"You never defended yourself at your court-martial. Never gave your side of the story. Why not?"
"What was there to tell?" Ro replied, her eyes dark and bleak. "I disobeyed orders, eight members of the away team died."
Janeway's eyes traced the proud face, the ridges at the top of the nose crinkled as the Bajoran stared straight ahead.
"Why do you wear your earring in your left ear?" Attempting this from another angle. "All the Bajorans I've ever know wear them in their right." She had surprised Ro, she saw, the officer no doubt expecting some other question just then.
"I ... it indicates a betrayal. I betrayed my people, I betrayed the prophets."
"Because of what happened on Garon II."
"Yes," Ro replied flatly.
Janeway thought about it, breathing slowly. "Lieutenant, you're not the only one who has received a second chance here in the Delta Quadrant. Half my crew has devoted themselves to following protocols they disdained before. It's not necessary that I know what happened before you joined 
Voyager, but I do need to know if it will affect you in the future."
"Because I'm Starfleet."
"And because I have plans for you as a Starfleet officer," Janeway agreed.
Ro winced and Janeway took note of the woman's quickness at understanding what the captain meant. She didn't have to explain herself with the Bajoran and it made Janeway realize how much living with Seven had influenced her method of expressing herself, of making sure everything she said was precise and accurate so as not to confuse the younger woman. With Ro, a certain amount of verbal shorthand could be established, reminding Janeway somewhat of her relationship with Tuvok. As if Ro knew her far better than she should, though the captain suspected it was more an indication of Ro's skill at observation rather than any information the Bajoran had actually gathered.
"You need to know if I'll betray you by disobeying orders, like I did on the Wellington." She took a breath. "Like I did with ... on the Enterprise."
Janeway noticed the way the woman faltered at that last bit, and she studied her keenly. Obviously, her estrangement with Picard still bothered Ro.
"Do you know why you had to disobey those orders?"
Ro swallowed. "I just ... had to," she said. "In both cases, I had to follow my instincts." She laughed suddenly, a bitter bark of disgust. "Of course, both times my instincts were wrong."
"Were they?"
Startled, Ro looked at her. "People died," she said harshly. "And the second time, I violated the trust of a great man." Her jaw quivered slightly. "I'll probably violate your trust someday."
"I don't think you will."
Ro assumed an expression of dismay, shaking her head slightly as if not understanding how Janeway could be so obtuse. The captain leaned back against the wall, inhaling slowly.
"Captain James of the Wellington indicated in his report that, although he had no concrete evidence that he could submit to the contrary," she said quietly, "It was his opinion that had you not disobeyed the orders of the away team leader, the entire team would have been killed rather than just eight. But since you offered no defense at the proceedings, he was unable to have his opinion stated for the record."
Ro seemed astounded. "I didn't know that. I thought..." She trailed off, face shadowed. "I thought he blamed me, too."
"It was Captain Picard's opinion regarding your defection that Admiral Necheyev assigned that mission to you too soon after your graduation from your advanced tactical training," Janeway went on inexorably. "Apparently, he blamed himself for not seeing that you weren't ready for it."
"That wasn't his responsibility. It was mine to accept or refuse the assignment." She paused. "I honestly believed I could handle it."
Janeway studied her fingernails, noting idly that she had cracked one in the fight.
"Laren, a captain must know the limitations of their people. Picard had misgivings from the beginning and didn't act upon them. He blames himself for losing a fine officer."
Ro's face crumpled. "But he can't. It was my decision."
"Nonetheless, that was his final mention on it in the official mission log," Janeway said firmly. "It is our prerogative as captains to do so, Laren. We take the credit when missions go right but we must also accept responsibility when they go wrong. You know this. You're turning into a fine commander yourself."
"Don't," Ro said flatly.
Janeway quirked a brow. "Don't what?" she asked mildly, her eyes glinting.
"Don't give me that kind of power," the Bajoran said. Her voice trailed off into a whisper. "Don't give the opportunity to betray you as well."
"Too late," Janeway remarked. "I've already granted you that power on several occasions. You've not disappointed me."
"But I might," Ro said bleakly.
"Voyager might find a wormhole someday," Janeway remarked casually. "In both cases, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. In the meantime, we do our best to get by with what we have."
The sound of footsteps forestalled what else might have been said and Janeway got up quickly, going over to the cell entrance, stopping just short of the force field sparkle. Her heart sank as she saw who was accompanying her chief of security.
"Captain, what happened?" Seven of Nine asked anxiously, her pale eyes raking the captain up and down. "You were arrested for being drunk and disorderly." She got close enough to smell the alcohol which had splashed over Janeway, her nose wrinkling. "Kathryn, is it ... true?"
The disappointment and astonishment that appeared in Seven's eyes then, was something Janeway would never forget. In that moment, she knew that she had been diminished somehow in her partner's eyes in a profound and hurtful way. It was something she never, ever wanted to see again.
 
Janeway was considerably subdued as she and Seven returned to their quarters, taking a seat on the couch and patting Jake quietly on his head as he came over to his mistress as if sensing something was wrong. Seven busied herself at her workstation, maintaining a terse silence as the captain regarded her. 
"Are you angry with me?" Janeway asked finally.
Seven exhaled. "I am confused by you," she admitted. "I do not understand why you would do such a thing. Normally, you display more comprehensive reasoning than this. You promised me that you would be prudent in choosing your course of action  I have never known you to break a promise to me."
"I know," the captain said softly. "I didn't mean to, Annika. It was stupid to go into the bar."
"Yet, you are not stupid," Seven said in puzzlement. "You are the most intelligent being I know." She hesitated, searching for the proper words. "I ... do not understand," she repeated, feeling more than a little helpless.
Janeway sighed, leaning forward as she rested her forearms on her thighs, her hands linked loosely between them.
"Annika, I wasn't drunk. I grant that I had one ale and part of another but that wasn't why I was involved in the fight. Ro and I were innocent bystanders who just got caught up in someone else's conflict."
"But why were you there at all?" Seven asked, trying for a tone without inflection. She must not have succeeded entirely since the captain winced slightly.
Janeway looked very weary. "Just ... just to get away for a few moments ... from the ship ..."
"From me?" Seven offered, the pain rising hard and fast in her chest.
Janeway hesitated and Seven was unable to hold her gaze, turning away in misery.
"Annika," Janeway said, her tone dropping as she stood up and crossed the room.
Seven easily heard the rustle of uniform, the sound of her footsteps on the carpeted deck as the captain stopped behind her, resting her hands on the Borg's shoulders.
"Please try to understand this," Janeway said huskily. "I know it's difficult. I'm not even sure I understand it completely myself." She paused again, obviously searching for the right thing to say. "I needed to be out there on my own again. To take some time where I'm not the captain, or your spouse or anything at all ... even it was only for a few moments."
Seven did not answer, lacking the words to do so. All she knew was that she felt lost and uncertain and Janeway must have sensed that.
"This isn't about you, Annika," Janeway said as she leaned over and hugged Seven, her arm across her chest as the Borg felt her spouse's face press into her hair. "It's me and working out everything I have to regarding the changes Voyager's gone through."
"Why will you not let me assist you?" Seven asked sadly.
"You can't. Your help ... sometimes it stifles me."
Seven bent her head, tears stinging the back of her eyes and Janeway hugged her closer.
"That doesn't mean I don't need your support," Janeway whispered. "I do, more than ever, I think. But support doesn't always mean help, Annika. Sometimes it means letting the other person figure it out on their own, even if they have to stumble along the way."
"I do not ... I never meant to harm you in my attempts to assist you."
"I know," Janeway responded and Seven heard her swallow hard. "Oh, darling, I'm saying this so badly. This is, in no way, your doing. Even if that's what it sounds like I'm saying, it's not at all what I mean."
She stopped, breathing harshly and Seven waited, knowing that her spouse was desperately trying to find the words so that the Borg would understand. Seven was warmed by that effort, even as she was hurt by the situation, by the confusion raging within her.
"Annika, I didn't sign on for a ship with families," Janeway said finally, sounding lost. "But that's what I have and I can't resign, I can't request another command and I can't transfer out ... I'm stuck with no way out. Every day, I have to be the one who makes the decisions that determines the fate of everyone on board this vessel, including you and Naomi and all those new babies who never asked for this. You and my crew try to protect me, but you can't. When it's all said and done, I have to do it alone." She stopped, clinging to the Borg and it took a few moments before she was able to go on.
"I like being captain, Annika," she husked. "I enjoy the power and the challenge it grants me. I even like the fact that it's mine to do alone. But sometimes ... just sometimes ... things just build up until I'm scared out of my wits. So I go and I do something stupid. I don't know why. Whether it's trying to walk away from the love you offered, or hiding away in my quarters for two months or getting into a fight in a bar, I just ... do these things. I can't help it."
Seven felt a little of her anxiety and tension subside as she finally understood that this really wasn't about her or their relationship, just Janeway's fear, her sense of guilt, and that was a familiar problem to the Borg.  Though she had yet to find a way to solve it which was a constant irritant ... she was not used to failing when she set her mind to a challenge. She breathed deeply and reached up, putting her hand on the captain's forearm, pulling it away so that she could turn around. Janeway's eyes were shiny when Seven looked into them and the young woman reached out, pulling the captain into her arms and onto her lap, ignoring the strong odor of ale emanating from her spouse. 
"I love you, Kathryn," Seven told her intently as she held her. "I do not entirely understand your fear. I do not even understand why you must do these things to display it. But I do accept that I must allow you to do them even when I see they are hurting you. I shall try very hard to remember that in the future."
"I know it's not an easy thing to ask of you, Annika," Janeway whispered, her arms around Seven's neck, her face buried in the hollow of the Borg's shoulder. "I'm not sure if I could be that strong if our positions were reversed. But darling, I really believe it has to be this way."
"I shall do my best, but you must allow for failure. There will be times when I shall not be able to restrain myself from trying to protect you."
"I know," Janeway said, drawing back a little so she could look into Seven's face. "That's perfectly all right, darling. I love that you want to. I might get a little contrary in return, but it never means that I've stopped loving you. Not for one instant."
The Borg nodded, regarded her spouse closely, searching the blue-grey eyes, then she carefully leaned forward and kissed her softly, tasting the aftermath of ale and stale smoke on the captain's breath.
"You were inhaling the byproduct of those smokesticks," Seven remarked somewhat distastefully when they finally parted.
Janeway dropped her eyes. "At the stationmaster's office." She sighed. "He even gave me a box to take with me."
"Indeed," Seven remarked, trying not to sound alarmed.
"I lost them in the fight," her spouse said, honestly regretfully.
Seven was not sorry at all at this piece of news. Perhaps every incident did have a 'bright side' after all.
Janeway rested her forehead against Seven's. "I need to clean up."
Seven agreed. She paused, lowering her voice. "Would you allow me to assist you in that?"
A small smile curled one corner of Janeway's mouth. "Always."
However, as they began to untangle in preparation of going into the ensuite, the chime to the door sounded and Seven remembered that Janeway had something else to resolve.
"Who could that be?" Janeway murmured with a hint of annoyance.
"I believe it is Naomi," Seven said as she went to the door. Sure enough, the small form of the ship's oldest child stood there, apprehension on her face.
"Hello, Seven," she said in a small voice. But she was obviously determined to be brave, straightening her thin shoulders and taking a deep breath in anticipation.
"Naomi Wildman," Seven remarked. "Come in."
She motioned the child into the quarters and looked at her spouse who was hastily tucking in her sweater, having stripped off the dirty tunic, removing most of the more apparent alcohol stains. Janeway raked her fingers through her hair, which only made it more disarrayed, and assumed her most formidable command mask.
"Captain," Seven said formally. "As Naomi's mentor, it was my duty to determine the reasons behind her recent resignation. I believe that she is now ready to discuss it with you."
Janeway shot her a look but there was little that Seven could do about the timing. The Borg went over to her workstation, sitting down and ostensibly began some overdue reports for astrometrics, even as she eavesdropped shamelessly on her spouse and the child.
"Miss Wildman," Janeway greeted with great formality. Apparently if she didn't appear as dignified as she would like, she could still sound every inch the ship's commander.
"C-captain," Naomi said in a quavery voice and Seven frowned, looking up at Janeway who caught her eye. Her spouse got the message and immediately gentled both her features and her tone.
"Have a seat, Naomi," Janeway invited, motioning the girl to the chair before taking a seat on the footstool directly opposite her so that they were at eye level. "What would you like to talk to me about?"
Naomi hesitated, looking over at Seven who inclined her head slightly, indicating that she should go ahead. The little girl swallowed hard and seemed to find strength in the Borg's glance.
"Seven says that I have made an erroneous decision," Naomi recited as Seven listened approvingly. "She says that my reasons for resigning were illogical and inefficient."
Janeway quirked an eyebrow, looking attentive.
"And what were those reasons, Naomi?"
"I ... it was all my fault, Captain," Naomi blurted suddenly.
Janeway blinked, obviously taken aback. "What was your fault?"
"That Seven got hurt so bad," the child said, speaking fast as if trying to get it all out before her fear stopped her. "I heard the noise coming through the grill and when I went to investigate, the Kunntarie commander captured me. Seven was hurt because I wasn't careful enough. She made Kalin shoot at her rather than at me and it's all my fault and I'm so sorry, Captain, Sevenalmostdiedandit'sallmyfault."
Naomi dissolved into tears, the last of her speech running together into one long outburst and Janeway looked at Seven, absolutely dismayed.
"Naomi, it wasn't your fault at all," Janeway said, patting the girl awkwardly on the shoulder. Seven thought that her spouse could stand some improvement in certain areas when it came to comforting children.
She raised her eyebrow at Janeway and made a circling motion with her arms, indicating the captain should hug the child ... even if Janeway did still smell like a tavern.
Janeway was somewhat hesitant, but she did as Seven suggested, enfolding the child in a warm embrace, hugging her tightly as she tried to soothe her.
"Naomi, you weren't responsible for Seven being hurt," she told her softly. "We all make choices and whatever happens, happens. Sometimes the consequences aren't so good but that's part of making our own decisions and being responsible for them. Seven made her choice to try to save you and I don't believe she regrets that choice for one moment. I know I don't. You're very important to us, Naomi, and all of us look out for each other. That's what makes us a crew, what makes us a family."
"But you almost lost her," Naomi sobbed, clinging to the captain's neck.
"Is this why you resigned?"
"A captain is responsible for the crew. I was responsible for this." She shook as another sob gripped her. "I don't want to be the reason someone dies."
Janeway closed her eyes, her chin resting on the child's head, rocking her gently.
"Naomi," she said in her most persuasive tone. "You can't take on this guilt. Nor can you let guilt influence how you live your life. You must learn to let it go. You can't change your decisions, you just have to accept and learn from them. All right?"
There was a pause, then finally Naomi nodded shakily.
"'kay," she said huskily.
"Do you still want to be my captain's assistant?" Janeway asked her hopefully.
Naomi nodded more firmly. "Yes." She drew back to look at the captain, her eyes wide and shimmering. "Do you still want me to?"
"Of course, I do," Janeway said with grave sincerity. "There's no one else on this ship who can fulfill that role."
"Thank you, Captain," Naomi sniffed.
"You're very welcome," Janeway told her gently, hugging her one more time.
After a moment, Naomi slid off her lap and stood at attention. Janeway looked confused for a moment, then smiled briefly.
"Dismissed."
Smartly, Naomi turned and smiled at Seven who returned it briefly, delighting in the bright blue of the child's eyes, all the shadows now gone thanks to her partner's kindness. The room seemed somewhat still after she left and Seven looked approvingly at her partner who stood in the center of the living area, arms crossed over her chest, her face set.
"Don't say it," Janeway warned.
Seven's eyebrow quirked.
"Was I about to say something?"
"You were going to say that I just gave Naomi good advice, and that I should take it myself."
Seven resisted the urge to smile.
"It could be considered applicable to your situation as well."
Janeway stared at her, then made a face. "I need a shower."
Seven did not say anything as her partner left the room but she believed her expression spoke absolute volumes.

The patrons of the bar were completely oblivious of the fight that had taken place a few hours earlier. In truth, it was a fairly regular occurrence when ships were in port and no more attention was paid to it than when ships weren't in port. The barkeep merely swept up the shattered glass and replaced the broken furniture from the seemingly unending supply in the back room. The bar was open again in less than an hour as if nothing had happened and it did not take long to fill up again. At a dimly lit table, a young man in a Starfleet uniform sat hunched over his drink, staring gloomily at the stains marking the surface around his mug, looking for some sort of answer that could rarely be found from such things. 
Neelix inhaled deeply as he spotted him, and crossed the room, winding his way artfully through the crowd, careful not to jostle anyone's arm. He had been in countless similar dives in his life and he knew that tempers were generally on a knife edge in such a place. Depression hovered like a cloud over the rest of the patrons, staring blankly as if waiting for something, though if asked, they were unlikely to be able to explain what they were waiting for.
"Mr. Paris," Neelix offered when he reached the table. "May I join you?"
The fair-haired helmsman looked up, staring at him with a distant air as if not recognizing the Talaxian, taking in the tufts of yellowish hair framing spotted features that most resembled a Terran wart hog and golden eyes that regarded him worriedly.
"Sure," he said shortly, without much interest.
Neelix sat down and waited as the bartender approached.
"What'llyahave?"
"I don't suppose you have a Cirrellian Silver wine?" Neelix asked hopefully. A blank look was his only response and he sighed. "A mug of your house ale, please."
The bartender grunted and wandered away, no doubt in search for the requested drink. Neelix hoped that he would return sometime within the next hour, leery of displaying his money. He would gladly give it to any thief of course, knowing that it could be easily replicated, but he was also aware that sometimes thieves got a little carried away and acted out the threat before actually uttering it. Besides, old habits died hard and he didn't like to show what he carried unless he had to. 
Paris, by contrast, seemed to have lost any common sense that he might have acquired in the past about displaying wealth. He had piles of coins scattered all over the table, presumably to allow the bartender to pick them up at will whenever he returned with the next round. It made it tremendously easy for Paris to be shortchanged of course, but the Voyager crewmember seemed not to care.
Neelix saw the bartender approach with a tray and he dug his money out of the pouch at his waist, passing the alien two coins and receiving no change. As a member of Voyager, he shouldn't care. As a Talaxian trader who knew the value of a credit, he was outraged, but he wasn't about to start any trouble.
Paris laughed sardonically, reading the Talaxian's expression correctly as the bartender left. "It's only money."
"That doesn't mean I can't get upset at being overcharged." Neelix sipped at his ale, wincing at the faint trace of sour aftertaste to it.
"How are you enjoying your leave?" Tom asked. His tone was dull, more a show of politeness and to start a conversation than because he wanted to know.
"It's an ... interesting station," Neelix noted diplomatically.
"What, this?" Paris blinked, looking around. "It looks like every other station I've ever been in."
Neelix regarded him worriedly, aware that he and Paris had never been the best of friends. In fact, a good part of their early interaction was tinged with jealousy on the Talaxian's part, afraid that the helmsman held a certain romantic interest in Neelix's paramour at the time, the Ocampa, Kes. As it turned out, Kes and Neelix had drifted apart, then she evolved into a higher plane of existence, leaving Voyager. Paris, in the meantime, began a relationship with B'Elanna Torres. When the chief engineer, along with Seven and Chakotay, was transported to the Alpha Quadrant, the crew had believed them dead. Paris had mourned, moved on, and found solace in the arms of another ... all in the space of three months. B'Elanna never forgave him for it and their relationship terminated, even though the young man had done his best to mend the rift between them. That had been some time ago and the Talaxian had grown to at least, respect the helmsman.
"You look so unhappy, Tom," Neelix offered. "Can I do anything to help?"
"Ah, Voyager's morale officer," Tom noted sarcastically. A lock of fair hair fell over his forehead boyishly but his blue eyes were bleary, and his face sagged. For an instant, Neelix was able to see into the future, to what the man would look like several decades hence ... and it wasn't appealing. "Aren't you off duty?"
"That doesn't mean that I can't offer help to a friend when I see him in distress."
"Are we friends?"
"I've always thought so," Neelix answered honestly. "At least, once we got to know each other." He folded his hands in front of him and granted the helmsman his full attention. "What's wrong, Tom?"
Paris grunted. "A better question is what's right?" He took a gulp from his glass, the smoky liquid a faint blue in the dim illumination. His eyes grew distant, as if looking back at other times ... better ones. "I suppose you've heard the latest?"
"Regarding?"
"Our chief engineer," Tom said, bitterness weaving through his tone. "And Tuvok's assistant."
Neelix had heard about Lt. Torres and Lt. Ro, but so many rumors circulated in the lower decks of Voyager, it was hard to sift through what was true and what was mere speculation.
"I understand that B'Elanna and Laren are friends."
"Friends. Yeah, friends." There was a curl to his lip, half sneer, half rueful despair. "We used to be friends, B'Elanna and me. Now she can't stand the sight of me."
Neelix handled that one with care, adopting a tone of complete objectivity. "Old news. People move on."
Tom nodded bleakly. "I don't get it, Neelix. For six years, no one even acknowledged the woman existed until she finally reveals she's actually Lt. Ro Laren of the USS Enterprise. The next thing I know, she's moving in on B'Elanna, she's becoming buddies with the captain, she pulling helm duty... The woman is just flat out replacing me, Neelix." This last was said in a sort of wonder, the bewildered cry of a child who doesn't quite understand what was going on but knowing it hurts desperately.
"You aren't giving yourself enough credit, Tom," Neelix said, a touch anxiously. This was worst than he had thought. Tom hadn't just had his pride damaged, he was actually losing his self confidence. "You're still the best pilot on the ship ... maybe even in the quadrant." As the confused gaze focused on him, Neelix presented his most sincere expression. "You're certainly the best I've ever seen in my experience. Who else could have pulled off the triple tactic we used to defeat those robot cruisers?"
Tom shook his head miserably. "Ro ran the simulations in the holodeck. That's why they even tried it in the first place."
"But who did Janeway have at the helm to carry them out for real?" Neelix pointed out intently. "There's no one else she would have trusted for that series of maneuvers. Yes, Ro is being groomed as your backup, Tom. The captain has to create backups for the key positions on the ship wherever she can, but you're still the man she goes to, to guide the ship. Everyone knows that. In fact," Neelix added with a certain amount of inspiration, "why do you think those three tactics performed in sequence is now being called the Paris Gambit?"
Tom blinked. "It is?" he responded in total astonishment.
"Everyone's calling it that," Neelix said, embellishing freely now. "I understood that it is a Human custom to name such a tactic after the first person who performs it successfully."
In truth, he had never heard anyone call the desperate actions Voyager had been required to undergo in order to escape destruction from the weapons of three unmanned, computer controlled vessels as anything but 'insane' or 'suicidal'. But he also knew that all it would take was one person to start the ball rolling and he had every intention of being that person. He promised himself that he would start referring to the whole incident as the Paris Gambit as soon as possible.
Besides, Paris was looking quite differently than he had when Neelix had entered the bar. The Talaxian chalked that one up on the positive side of the morale ledger.
"Well, hell," Tom said, after a moment. "That deserves a drink." He signaled for another round and the bartender scurried over, knowing a good customer when he saw it, bearing another round of the same, even though Neelix was not even half done with his first. The proprietor deposited the drinks and scooped the coins off the table, hurrying away as if afraid the Starfleet officer would suddenly start counting his change.
Tom raised his glass and Neelix hastened to do the same.
"To the Paris Gambit," the Talaxian said boldly.
"To the damned fine ship that let me pull it off."
"To Voyager," they declared together.
They both swallowed, Neelix managing not to gag on the inferior liquor and their mugs hit the table at the same time with a muffled thud. Tom smiled and Neelix burped.
"You know, you're right, Neelix," Tom said, a lot more genial now. "B'Elanna and I would never have worked out. We're just two totally different people. In fact, I'm glad someone else has to be the one to deal with all that Klingon temper. I hope Ro and her are real happy together."
Having been witness to a couple of the arguments the two women had shared in the messhall, Neelix had his doubts but certainly, stranger things had happened. Look at the captain and the ship's resident Borg, for example. No one would have imagined that relationship in the beginning ... including Janeway and Seven of Nine.
A couple of rounds later, both men were a great deal more relaxed but the bar was becoming more and more crowded as the evening wore on, the noise growing more pervasive. The Talaxian knew that the odds of possible trouble developing had increased considerably.
"I think I'll head back to the ship." He blinked owlishly at Tom. "Walk me back?"
Tom hesitated, then shrugged. "It's not like this place is worth spending that much time in."
They got to their feet uncertainly, Tom leaving the remaining coins on the table as a tip, which the bartender was quick to pounce on before any of the other patrons decided to use them for their own tab. In return, the burly alien cleared a path for the Voyager crewmembers to the door which Neelix appreciated. Neither of the men were too steady at this point and some of the lifeforms did not look like they'd move voluntarily at a politely worded invitation.
They staggered out onto the promenade that was thronged with people out for an evening's entertainment. Neelix took one look at this and ducked into the nearest access corridor, the route taking them out to the docking section. Even though it was still quite some distance to the service section where Voyager was being overhauled, there was much less traffic here and the two men were able to stroll in relative comfort through the loading bays. Neelix had fallen into a sort of sleepy contentment, concentrating on placing one foot in front of the other. It took several strides before he realized that Tom was no longer walking with him and he bumbled to a stop, turning back.
Paris was standing at a loading platform, staring at the large viewport that looked out onto the rest of the ship which was docked to this particular port. His face had gone absolutely white and Neelix wondered if the young man was pausing in order to be sick.
"Tom?"
Violently, Tom gestured at him to be quiet and he faded back into the shadows as Neelix stumbled back to join him, confused, but still aware enough to know something was up. As he moved closer, he realized that suddenly, Tom was completely and coldly sober, staring at the viewport with cold eyes and a face set in stone.
"It's one of those ships," the helmsman said.
"What ships?" Neelix asked, baffled.
"Just like the ones that attacked us," Paris muttered, his eyes darting about. "Don't you recognize the configuration?" 
Neelix blinked. "I never actually saw them. At least, not before they were in pieces. I was in engineering the entire time. Are you sure?"
"I don't forget a ship I've helped blow up," Tom remarked grimly. "The question is, what's one of them doing here?"
Neelix frowned. "Maybe this station is controlling them? They are robot ships, aren't they?"
"Maybe," Tom agreed. He swallowed. "We need to tell the captain."
Neelix nodded but before he could add anything else, from the corner of his eye, he glimpsed a motion. Startled, he turned and an energy beam struck him in the chest, setting every one of his nerve endings on fire. Odd lifeforms approached, looking like thin streaks of charcoal dressed in ruby uniforms the color of Human blood. One stood over him as the Talaxian lay on the deck, twitching while Paris shuddered uncontrollably a few feet away, also a victim of the nerve beam.
Neelix tried to focus his gaze, staring up to see yellow eyes glowing eerily in the smudged features, then the being raised its arm, having reversed the weapon so that it could bring the butt down onto the Talaxian's head.
And Neelix knew nothing more.
 
Janeway sat in bed, knees drawn up, her eyes sweeping across the snowy page of her book, but the words did not stick with her, the meaning of them darting away with her unable to connect them together to form coherent sentences. She finally gave up, sighing as she leaned back against the pillows while her book splayed on her stomach, her head falling back as she fixated on the ceiling. She had disdained a shower for a nice long bath, soaking for a good half hour before retiring here to the bedroom, but it really hadn't cured her restlessness. Out in the living area, she could still hear Seven moving around, no doubt finishing up some tasks that had slid while she had been covering engineering the past week or so. 
It occurred to Janeway that the only person who might possibly work harder than the captain on the ship was Seven herself. And at the moment, Janeway didn't think that was such a good thing. When did the work stop and the living begin? Or were their lives always going to be nothing more than duty and responsibility? When would they be able to live for themselves?
Janeway had to answer her own question with the possible answer of 'never'. Because if they didn't find a way back home, if Voyager was required to take the entire 23 years to travel the remaining distance to the Alpha Quadrant, then it would probably be too late for Janeway to bear children. And no matter what angle she tried it from, Janeway and Seven were the one couple on the ship who couldn't afford to divert their attention. At least, the captain couldn't. It was hard enough to balance command and a spouse, with Seven doing her very best to help. Children lacked that adult adaptability. They could not understand being neglected for the sake of the ship, did not appreciate that mommy was also needed by 150 other people, would never comprehend being pushed aside for the sake of something greater.
Janeway knew that without question. Because, forty years after the fact, there was still a part of her that ached profoundly, unable to fully accept that Starfleet had been more important to her father than his wife and children. There was no way Kathryn would allow a child of hers to be hurt in the same way.
She swallowed hard, her eyes stinging as she wished with all her heart that she could find a way around this, if not for herself, then for the woman she loved. Because Seven did want children. Janeway saw that every time the Borg interacted with Naomi or when she witnessed the light in the Borg's pale eyes when she spoke of the new additions arriving every day on the ship.
Janeway blinked back the tears as she heard Seven enter the bedroom, raising her head. The Borg glanced at her in passing on her way to the ensuite and hesitated, turning around to take a second, longer look. Then, without saying anything else, Seven reversed her course, moving to the captain's side of the bed, perching on the edge and gathering Janeway up in her arms, book and all.
"Oh, Annika," Janeway whispered, pressing her cheek against Seven's as she wrapped her arms around her partner's neck. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for today, I'm sorry for disappointing you ... I'm just so damned sorry for everything."
Seven hugged her tight, stroking the captain's hair soothingly.
"It is all right, Kathryn. Please, let go of this. If not for yourself, then please, let go of it for me."
If only she could, she thought. "Oh, god, hold me."
"I will, Kathryn," Seven promised intently. "I always shall." 

The Borg held the captain, sheltering her in the warm comfort of her strong arms. It was all Janeway could do not to break down and cry and it took a while before she had composed herself.

"Why do I have to do everything the hard way?"
Seven drew back, looking down into Janeway's eyes.
"It is your nature, Kathryn, no more and no less. You do not truly feel an accomplishment is worthy unless it was difficult to win ... even if you must create the difficulty yourself."
"The rocky road," Janeway agreed ruefully. "Dad always said I wasn't happy unless I was taking that one instead of the easy path."
"I believe he was correct." The Borg kissed her tenderly. "It is part of who you are, Kathryn, and we both must adapt to it."
"Was this what you married me for?" Janeway asked whimsically.
Seven tightened her embrace. "I married you because I love you with all that I am. Because I would rather be with you in the most difficult of times than be without you in the easiest."
"I don't deserve you," the captain whispered.
"Of course you do," Seven remarked in a no-nonsense tone. "You and I are the most suitable match there is on this vessel. Do not underestimate that."
Janeway smiled. "I'll try not to."
"I must shower and prepare for bed," Seven said then, searching her face. "I will be back shortly."
"I'll be waiting," Janeway promised as she released her after one more hug.
The captain lay back against the pillows, bringing the illumination down with a softly uttered command, knowing that Seven could navigate quite nicely without it. A multicolored glow from the docking lights of the station came in through the viewport above the bed and Janeway linked her hands behind her head, contemplating the odd shadows it created on the ceiling.
She glanced over as Seven entered the room, devoid of clothing, the remaining implants the Borg boasted, shimmering silver in the night. The young woman's body was supple though Janeway thought perhaps that Seven looked somewhat more lean than she should ... not surprising since they had all been stretched rather thin lately. As the Borg slipped under the covers next to Janeway, stretching out on her back on her side of the bed, the captain made a mental note to see that her partner increased her dietary intake.
She reached out with her hand, entwining her fingers with Seven's, connecting physically to the woman she adored and felt herself finally relax. Inhaling slowly, she felt love and tenderness for the young woman flood her being, filling her with strength and hope for the future.
She forced herself to acknowledge that Voyager was only an hour or so away from being back to 100%, including the completion of all the necessary renovations to transform the ship into a generational vessel. Six of the babies had been born, all healthy, all bringing joy and delight to their parents. The crew, despite the lack of classier amenities, had found Balleyport Station to be the sort of rough and rugged frontier atmosphere that put a cockiness in their stride, and a jaunty air to their attitude after returning from their leaves. Perhaps it was time to let go of the past. Voyager was about to start a new existence. It was time she started anew, as well.
She inched closer to Seven who obligingly inched closer in return. Now their sides were pressed together and Janeway could feel the long length of her partner warm against her. Seven's thumb gently rubbed the back of her hand, circling softly, the metal cool, yet pleasant on her skin. To her surprise, she discovered that just this light touch from Seven was arousing her. Her nipples hardened beneath the thin sheet resting over them, abruptly sensitive to the linens.
"You're incredible," she said softly.
A pause.
"Thank you," Seven responded politely.
Janeway laughed, low and husky.
"You're welcome."
Seven's thumb trailed down to Janeway's wrist, curling inside to stroke the pulse point lightly, stepping up the caress with the corresponding increase of the captain's heart. Janeway could not get over how electric the Borg's touch was, how easily Seven could make her tingle with anticipation and desire. She wondered if she provided the same thing for Seven, if the young woman ever found herself on duty, doing something mundane and tedious, and her thoughts would turn to her partner and making love? Janeway remembered all the times when she had been sitting on the bridge or in her ready room during a quiet moment ... or even a not so quiet moment ... and suddenly, she could almost taste her partner's essense lingering in her mouth, smell the Borg's fragrance as if she were standing right behind her, feel the touch of her body against her own. It could almost be frightening in its intensity, in how easily it could distract the captain from the matter at hand.
It was exhilarating though, Janeway thought, sighing slowly as Seven rose onto her side, bringing her right hand over to trail lightly over Janeway's stomach, her fingertips tracing around her navel sensuously, stopping just short of tickling her. Such moments made life far more precious, immediate ... and certainly more invigorating.
"Kathryn," Seven murmured, her lips close to the captain's ear.
"Yes, darling?"
"May I touch you?"
'Mmm, I thought you were already touching me, my love," Janeway smiled, bringing her hand up to run her knuckles along the Borg's jaw, feeling the full lips brush over her cheek. 
"I wish to touch you further," Seven admitted, her fingers trailing lightly in the warm valley between the captain's breasts, circling around them carefully as if afraid to touch them, though Janeway knew better. The gentle caress was delightful and the captain shifted, wanting more.
"I want you to touch me further," Janeway whispered, snuggling a bit closer. "My sweetness, I want you to touch me all over for the rest of my life."
"You call me so many 'pet names'," Seven noted quietly, kissing softly along the line of the captain's throat as she eased over on top of the smaller woman, supporting much of her weight on elbows and knees but still pressing down pleasantly on Janeway's body.
"I do," Janeway agreed softly as she slid her arms around Seven's neck, tangling her hands luxuriously in the blonde hair, running her fingers through it. "Do you mind?"
"No, they make me feel special," Seven told her. "Should I develop one for you?"
Janeway chuckled huskily. "I think how you say my name is special. It sends chills up my spine."
"Kathryn," Seven said obligingly, the emotion wrapping around it like the glow of a hearth after coming in from a winter's night, and Janeway shivered from the sheer sensation of it. "My Kathryn."
"All yours," Janeway whispered. "Forever."
"Darling," Seven tried experimentally, kissing her gently.
Janeway smiled. "That's nice," she murmured. "I like how you say that."
"Sweetheart."
"That's good, too."
"Baby."
Janeway wrinkled her nose. "No, I don't think so."
"Love muffin."
"Oh, no!" Janeway was firm with her denial.
"Kitten?" Then almost immediately, Seven corrected herself. "No, that term is insufficient. Tigress, perhaps?"
Janeway growled and nipped at the Borg's nose.
Seven smiled faintly. "So few apply to your personality. Is that why you limit yourself to only a set number of appellations for me?"
Janeway pursed her lips. "I never really thought about it."
"I shall contemplate pet names for you, until I arrive at one which is suitable."
"You do that," the captain responded with humor.
Seven's nose brushed over Janeway's as her face remained close, her breath flowing over the captain's lips, warm and fresh, and Kathryn raised her head slightly, capturing the full lips, kissing her spouse with just a hint of passion.
"I do adore you, Annika," she whispered against those lips.
"I love you, my Kathryn," Seven replied, kissing her again. "I always will."
Another kiss, warm touches, sweet exchanges of the most gentle sort.
"I could do this all night."
"And have," Seven noted.
"And will again."
They both smiled and kissed again as Seven settled a little closer onto the captain, her weight still not oppressive to Janeway. Rather, it was comforting, protective, making Janeway feel secure beneath this slender, warm body. Janeway ran her hands gently down the sinuous back, fingertips tracing the dual implants set at the base of the spine, then over until they were resting on the Borg's hips, stroking the point of bones lightly, then along the hollows of the woman's trim buttocks.
"Annika?"
"Yes, Kathryn?"
"Make love to me?"
"Immediately, Kathryn. My beautiful, beloved Kathryn."
 
B'Elanna Torres felt weariness tug at her as she stepped off the turbolift on deck nine, but there was satisfaction as well. The last of the repairs were finished, the final renovations were done and Voyager had been detached from the umbilicalus supplying her power and atmosphere. The work crews from the station had disembarked ... not before insulting at least three members of Voyager's engineering team profoundly with several lewd suggestions ... and once again, the vessel was powered up, ready to launch herself into the beckoning reaches of space where she belonged. Her energy levels stood at one hundred percent, her cargo bays fully stocked with supplies and her transformation to a generational ship complete. And finally, her chief engineer, who had fretted and cursed and demanded and howled during the entire process could take her moment to rest. 
She blinked as she saw a form next to her door, the slender woman sitting on the deck, her back against the hull, arms wrapped around her drawn up knees.
"Laren?"
Ro Laren jerked slightly, as if she had been dozing and gracefully got to her feet, uncoiling her tall frame like a cobra rising to strike. It sent a chill of delight through the Klingon.
"Hello," the Bajoran said quietly, blinking in the lights of the corridor which were lowered to half, indicating night watch.
"Were you waiting for me?"
"Yes," Ro said. "I was hoping I could ... well, spend some time with you."
"That would be great," B'Elanna said, just as if she wasn't about to fall over with exhaustion. Her adrenal glands did their best to compensate, sending a flood of hormones and natural stimulants through her body. "Come on in."
She keyed the entrance to her quarters, Ro following as she went inside. The engineer unfastened her tunic, slipping it off her shoulders and tossing it onto the bed.
"Can I get you something?"
"No, thanks," Ro said softly.
B'Elanna eyed her curiously. The Bajoran looked just as tired as the Klingon had felt.
"Bad day?"
"Don't even ask," Ro said ruefully.
B'Elanna grinned wryly. "Well, have a seat, relax a little. I'm going to change."
As Ro found a chair next to the table, B'Elanna went into the ensuite, trying not to skip. She showered quickly, using the sonic setting, then looked over her somewhat limited supply of perfume before choosing one to apply to her pulse points. She selected a nightgown and drew a robe on over that. The robe was very sensible, terrycloth, fluffy and pink, reaching down to her ankles. The nightgown was short and wickedly black, softly silken against her skin.
B'Elanna figured she had it covered no matter how the rest of the evening developed though the butterflies that were flailing around in the pit of her stomach told her exactly how she wanted it to go.
She took a breath and straightened her shoulders, returning to the outer room. Ro was sitting quietly at the table, her elbows resting on it, her dark eyes distant as she played idly with a small statuette B'Elanna had picked up on a planet lightyears back. The Bajoran's shoulders were slumped, head bent and B'Elanna had to resist the urge to reach out and stroke the back of her neck as she passed. Instead, she took a seat opposite Ro and regarded her expectantly.
"You want to tell me about it?"
A faint smile ghosted over the woman's face. "There's ... nothing to tell."
B'Elanna tilted her head slightly. "No?" she prodded ever so gently.
"Perhaps a better statement would be that there is nothing I can tell."
"I can be discrete." Ro's dark eyes fixed on B'Elanna's with blatant disbelief and she blushed. "Honestly, I can."
Ro shook her head. "Sorry, B'Elanna," she said with sincere regret. "I'd tell you if I could but it's a security matter."
B'Elanna shrugged. "Okay. Is there anything you can tell me that might make you feel better for sharing?"
Ro inhaled slowly, looking thoughtful. "I had the opportunity to speak to the captain about ... well, about the things that were bothering me."
B'Elanna looked interested. "Really? Did it help?"
Ro nodded. "A little. She couldn't really say or do anything that would absolve me of anything, of course, but at least, I think we know where we stand with one another." She smiled gently at the Klingon. " You were right. Thank you."
B'Elanna wasn't sure how she should take that one, or even if she should pursue it. She supposed it was enough that the other woman did seem more relaxed when speaking of the guilt that remained after having betrayed the trust of her previous captain. She folded her hands on the table in front of her.
"I'm glad." Her eyes met Ro's and for long moments, they sat staring at one another. "I guess ... that makes things easier for you to be on the bridge now." It wasn't what she wanted to say, but it was the only thing she could think of to break this sudden, electrified silence between them.
"Probably," Ro agreed faintly. "Or when we go to lunch with Seven, and the captain happens to be there."
"She really likes you, you know."
"Seven?"
"Yeah, her too, but I meant the captain." The engineer knew she was babbling a bit at this point but as long as she was, she wouldn't suddenly leap across the table onto the unsuspecting Bajoran. "She teases you and she only teases people she likes."
"I didn't know that."
B'Elanna swallowed hard and with an effort, forced herself to continue.
"Would you like to play some chess?"
To B'Elanna's surprise, she and Ro had found a mutual pleasure in playing Three-D Chess, a game which seemed uncharacteristic of the personalities of either woman, yet presented an interesting challenge for them both. Ro's game was tactically precise, always plotted several moves ahead while B'Elanna tended to play at breakneck speed, intent on causing as much damage as she could to her opponent in the hopes that sheer attrition would win the game. Sometimes, much to Ro's chagrin and B'Elanna's glee, it did.
Ro dipped her head, looking at B'Elanna from beneath her lids.
"Actually," the Bajoran said, her voice suddenly low and silky. "I would like very much to kiss you right now."
Startled, shocked, B'Elanna felt a twinge around where her secondary heart rested quiescent in her chest. Her primary one was pounding so hard, she was afraid it would thrash its way out of her chest.
"All right." How she managed that casual tone in that moment, was something that would forever remain a mystery to her.
She rested her palms on the table, the surface smooth and cool beneath them as Ro go up and came around the table. Carefully, Ro leaned down and covered B'Elanna's mouth, her lips warm and questioning against the Klingon's.
B'Elanna resisted for as long as she could, not sure why other than the fact that she was still hesitant about scaring the woman away. Then her lips parted and she kissed the Bajoran back greedily. To her gratification, Ro did not pull away. Instead, she reached down to B'Elanna's shoulders, gripping them, urging her up out of the chair. The engineer was quick to accede to this slight encouragement, standing up to be enfolded into the Bajoran's arms, their lips never losing contact. B'Elanna wrapped her arms around Ro's waist, fitting her body against the uniform clad woman as tightly as she could. Unbidden, a growl rose from her throat and she forced it back with an effort. 
Ro finally broke away, breathing harshly as she rested her forehead against the proud, Klingon ridges of B'Elanna's brow.
"I don't know if this is the right time or place, but  I want to be with you tonight."
B'Elanna smiled, feeling desire flash hot and thick along her nerve endings.
"We'll make it the right time and place."
Ro looked at her, and abruptly kissed her again, covering the Klingon's mouth demandingly, passionately. B'Elanna did growl this time, turning it into a moan and she wormed her hands between them, working at the fastenings of the Bajoran's tunic until she was able to peel it over the woman's shoulders, the jacket dropping to the floor where they kicked it away. Ro's body was warm through the thin layer of sweater and the Klingon tugged at the garment where it was tucked into the waistband, freeing it so that she could run her hands underneath to the soft skin of the Bajoran's torso.
"Oh, yes," Ro groaned, tilting her head back as B'Elanna kissed and nipped along the line of her throat, finding the soft skin at the base where the Klingon pressed her lips over the pulse point there, feeling an echoing throb inside her, building with each flutter beneath her mouth.
The Bajoran pushed B'Elanna away slightly and the Klingon resisted briefly until she understood that Ro was attempting to untie the cord holding the engineer's robe. Then she helped, fingers fumbling at the knot until she finally snarled and ripped it apart, quickly shedding it and slipping out of the robe.
"Stop," Ro demanded and confused, B'Elanna did so, freezing before her.
The woman's eyes were dark, hot as she raked the Klingon up and down with a burning gaze.
"Very nice," she complimented, and B'Elanna was so glad she had chosen the nightgown she had.
Ro pulled her sweater off over her head, strands of her dark hair flying awry as static electrified them and B'Elanna found it difficult to breath as the woman's muscled shoulders, stomach and chest were revealed. Ro was still clad in the Starfleet issued bra and in the center of each mound, two hard little knots had appeared, poking proudly through the thin material. B'Elanna groaned and reached out to the Bajoran, crushing Ro against her as she sought out the lips that were also seeking out hers. Ro's hands were firm on the Klingon, not hesitating as she caressed her through the silken nightie and B'Elanna did not know how she could survive this. She could not remember wanting anyone so much as she wanted Ro Laren this moment.
She unhooked the woman's bra, pulling it off and forced herself to take a few seconds to appreciate the woman's small, yet wonderfully shaped breasts. She was startled as she realized that there were ridges of some sort that rippled up from the brown circle of each pinkish areola for about five centimeters, looking vaguely like the ridges on the bridge of Ro's nose only without the two off-shooting bone spurs. Intrigued, the Klingon carefully reached out and stroked them, discovering they were flesh and not cartilage, bumping her fingertips over them before following the tapered path to circle each hard nipple.
Ro made a sound, deep in her throat. "That feels so good."
Encouraged, B'Elanna bent forward and traced the short ridges with her tongue, discovering they were as sensitive as the velvet soft skin at the tips of the woman's breasts and she was reminded that Ro was not Klingon or even Human, that her physiology would be different. So far, the differences were wonderful.
Ro tangled her hands in the Klingon woman's hair, pulling B'Elanna's face tighter to her body and she gasped as the engineer gently raked her teeth over the sensitive skin, careful not to break it.
"It's been so long," Ro moaned.
B'Elanna suddenly felt most of her trepidation leave her. Seven was absolutely right, she thought dizzily. Making love with Laren would be perfect. She lifted her face and smiled gently at Ro who smiled tentatively back, not sure what had happened to suddenly take the knife edge off the Klingon's desire, but aware somehow that it was not particularly bad, her eyes growing gentle in the dim light.
Lovingly, B'Elanna drew the woman close and kissed her, sweet and slow, deeply and devotedly, her hands moving tenderly over the woman's back, slipping her hands beneath the waistband of Ro's pants to cup her buttocks. She breathed deep as a certain, intoxicating musk reached her nostrils, and knew she had succeeded in fully arousing the other woman. She could feel Ro's sensitive hands move over her body, finding the pronounced bone ridge that made up her spine, the knobs terminating at two spurs at the bottom, the Bajoran's fingers digging in firmly to rub the muscle around them.
B'Elanna gasped and knew that the Bajoran must have done a little preliminary research herself. Few non-Klingons knew how to massage that particular area to cause that type of stimulation. In fact, not all Klingons knew how to do it ... especially in the way it was stimulating B'Elanna. Another growl rose hard and deep in her throat.
Then all hell broke loose.
"Yellow alert, all hands, prepare for immediate departure." Chakotay's voice came over the comm badges, Ro's on the floor, still attached to her tunic and B'Elanna's which she had laid on the table, along with her Maquis insignia, prior to entering the ensuite earlier in the evening. "All command staff, assemble in conference room one. Lieutenants Ashmore and Ro to the bridge."
There was a list of other names required to go to certain other areas of the ship where they were not normally posted, but it was lost in the string of Klingon oaths that burst from B'Elanna's lips. The curses were not necessarily in keeping with the image of a Starfleet chief engineer but they were matched quite nicely by the more lyrical tirade the Bajoran was uttering. Ro snatched up her sweater and tunic hastily as B'Elanna dashed for the replicator, keying in the uniform replacement command and stripping off her nightgown in a rush. It was not exactly how B'Elanna had wanted to first display her naked form in front of the other woman but chances were, Ro was fully occupied with getting her sweater back down over her head and yanking on her tunic and thus, not even looking.
B'Elanna felt like weeping as she grabbed the neatly pressed uniform, complete with undergarments that had materialized on the shelf. Trying hard not to think about what she was being deprived of, she pulled it on, wondering where the hell she had left her boots. Ro paused on her way out the door to hand them to her.
"Another time," she promised and kissed B'Elanna quickly, her lips bittersweet on the Klingon's.
Then the Bajoran darted through the exit and biting off a final, bitter curse, B'Elanna followed her, catching up to her at the turbolift which silently carried them up to deck one, neither having or wanting the ability to speak at the moment.
Both of them wondering why all the gods and prophets seemed against them.
 
Epilogue

 
Seven watched grimly as the conference room viewscreen displayed a recording of what had happened dockside with Paris and Neelix, the station's holo-imagers picking it all up though, until the shift change had gone over it, no one realized there had been a crime committed. She glanced over at the captain who was sitting at the head of the table. Janeway's face was like stone, her eyes, twin chips of solid granite. Obviously, the captain had recognized the species who had attacked and captured the Voyager crewmembers. And though they were not any species that the Collective had ever assimilated, Seven had dealt with them harshly in a Barellan prison months earlier.
Now it seemed, they were actually behind the previous attack on Voyager.
"They're called the Spurnge," Stationmaster Twimm said, his face suddenly appearing as the station log completed the scenario showing the aliens scooping up Paris and Neelix, bearing them to their ship and requesting an immediate launch. "Believe me, if we had know of their activities or that there was bad blood between you all, we would have kept a live monitor on both your vessels rather than just an automated one."
"We described the attack we experienced," Janeway said coldly.
"You said those were computer-controlled vessels," Twimm responded defensively. "I told you I didn't know anything about that. The Spurnge don't use robot ships. You might not be able to pick up their lifesigns with traditional sensors, but they still man their vessels ... sort of."
"Explain," Seven said then, intrigued.
"Their operators are integrated with their ships ... sort of a direct mind-to-machine link. They're nasty business, Voyager. Chances are, they're heading back to their sector of space with their trophies and it's complete suicide to go after them. You'd better chalk this one up as a bad deal, all around."
"I can't," Janeway said flatly. "They have members of my crew and I intend to get them back."
"Your funeral," Twimm said with a regretful shrug. "We've downloaded all the library files we have on the Spurnge, finished all the fee transfers and now Voyager is clear for immediate departure."
"Thank you," Janeway said, then hesitated, softening. "You've treated us fairly and honestly, Stationmaster Twimm. That's about all we can ask out here in the Delta Quadrant. Continued success to you."
"And to you, Kathryn Janeway, though I doubt that's what you'll have, going after the Spurnge in their own space. We probably won't be crossing paths ever again."
The viewscreen went blank and Janeway regarded her senior staff gravely. There were two empty chairs, conspicuous in lieu of the absent crewmembers who normally sat in them.
"Commander Chakotay, inform Lt. Ro that she'll be covering the helm until further notice," the captain said firmly. "Lt. Torres, Lt. Nicoletti will be returned to engineering to fill the void Neelix has left." She paused, looking at each senior officer in the eyes, making contact with them, solidifying the bond they all felt. "We'll get Tom and Neelix back. You can count on it. Prepare for immediate pursuit of the Spurnge vessel. Let's do it, people." 
The command staff quickly got to their feet and headed for the door. As they did, Seven was surprised to hear a muttered comment from B'Elanna that would forever puzzle her.
"I just knew Paris was responsible for this somehow."

The End

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